there's a my little pony named bright eyes.


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i wrote and sent this letter in late august. for those of you who know me, you probably know who it was addressed to, but their name will be left unsaid. as much as i liked to say things changed after this letter, they havent. i havent spoken to this person yet, however i have seen him... its just awkward glances when i do. but i had to write ( Read more... )

after having a talk with jon williams, and listening to "dont rain on my parade", i realized i have to be in "funny girl".

i remember being a little girl, watching funny girl, dancing on a step, and imagining i was in the show.

i was raised on this movie, my moms the biggest barbra-attic and i love to perform.

i'll update later on my

even though i've lost a few friends in the past few months, and its really upset me; it honestly made me realize how many geniunely close friends i do have. and i take it as an asset, because i look back to freshman year and i know i didn't have this support. its the support that makes me feel like i've come quite away. i guess you truly have to ( Read more... )

i'm done with giving people 2nd, 3rd and 4th chances. i've found i'm pretty good at reading people; from now on, they fuck up, i dont need them anymore. its gotten to the point of insanity, i really feel way too screwed over. i'm constantly lied to and i hate it ( Read more... )

things that amuse me lately ( Read more... )

jobs i'd like to have ( Read more... )

i have honestly never felt like such a loner. i have friends, yes. but no place where i belong; no set group. for so long i've prided myself on being in several different groups. but lately, with so many things changing, i'm pretty much out of all of those groups. when i am with them, i am always the odd man out. i think for some part, i want ( Read more... )

when do i find this so-called happiness? how come i can't find what i want?

it seems that these periods of depression are getting longer with each down. i find myself crying alot. sometimes it takes me some time to sort out why.

lately i've had this constant feeling as if im not good enough for everyone. friends, guys, family; the vast majority. its seems to me im not adequately wanted.