Beanie does not look good. At first I thought she was dead this morning but upon closer inspection I saw she was breathing. Her eyes are wide open and glazed (she hasn't blinked in an hour) and she isn't moving. I wrapped her up in a wash cloth to keep her warm and she only moves her right arm. I tried petting her head and arm but she moved her ( Read more... )

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA! I just walked into my room and switched on the light. Beans (my possibly autistic dumbo) was perched on the side of the food bowl with her head COMPLETELY buried in the food. I laughed and put my finger thru and gave her a poke. SHe sat up and looked at me WITH A PIECE OF UNCOOKED RICE STICKING OUT HER NOSE. I picked her up and ( Read more... )

I seem to be having a wonderful track record with rats. First Tater drowning in her own fluids then Spider was in death throes (saved by a leftover cipro) NOW I come home to find this: Spider COVERED in what looks like blood but is probably that polyporfin stuff. I run over to the cage and she is jumping around and climbing like a madrat. I grab ( Read more... )

Horrible night. It is 4:00 and I can't sleep. My legs hurt sooo much it is keeping me awake. Am thinking of taking a vicodin ( Read more... )

Anyone ever had their parents come to a therapy meeting? Mine came to day to talk about my future options and maybe college (afterall, I am only 5 years behind the rest of the world...) BIG mistake. Mom has come before, but never dad. He immediatly started attacking me about all my faults and how this WAS my fault because I never WANTED to go to ( Read more... )

can't stop crying. THe tears just keep leaking out. It's been hours now. I'll do alright for a few min then I kind of hiccup and feel a tightness in my chest and the tears start flowing again. My eyes are red rimmed. It looks like I outlined my eyes in red eyeliner and they are starting to itch. But yet the tears still come. Maybe I need to take my ( Read more... )

Today was the worst day of days. Dad started attacking me at the therapists and I ended up sobbing thru the whole session. Once I started I couldn't stop. I am done. I don't want anything else to do with dad. I am just so tried of all the tiptoeing around and changing my personality to make him happy. He dosen't want to listen when I talk and he ( Read more... )

Tomorrow Mom and Dad both go to the Dr. with me and talk about my future options. I am soooo nervous. I have to ride back with dad. I know he will chew me out for what I say in there. Am NOT happy.

Today was Cassi's birthday. I went to lunch with dad, lynne and cassi. I think dad was a little put out by how many presents I gave cassi. Maybe, he felt it made his look bad. Then I came home and took a 3 hour nap. Went out to dinner with mom and craig and cassi. Now I am back here. Have Dr. appointment at 8:15 am tomorrow and one at 2:15 pm. Joy.

Tomorrow is Cassi's birthday. SHe will be 19. I have told her a couple of times, including yesterday, that I am taking it off of work. Find out today that she might have lunch with Dad (they didn't even think of inviting me. Their words.) and she is going to spend the whole day with friends. Maybe she will have dinner with mom and me. SHe didn't ( Read more... )