i am jealous of everyone. i don't like anything about my life.
everyone else has something i want.
i think i used to be happy at some point.

for the past two days i haven't been able to stop crying.
i feel so lonely.
and when i think about it, no one cares.
and that just makes me cry more.

Except it really wasn't.

I thought it would be much harder. I thought I would see him everywhere I went.  Not actually him, but memories of him.  I left the pictures up on my bulletin board for a while and they didn't make me cry.  In fact, I barely cried after those first two or three days.  And this doesn't mean that we didn't really love each ( Read more... )

1) How was your Friday?
Boring, but my Saturday, Sunday, Monday and Tuesday were awesome. BBQs, free stuff, friendly's, iced coffee, sleepovers

2) Where is your display picture taken?
This is obvz a myspace survey, but my LJ picture was taken in my parents house at my mom's piano

3) What's your middle name?
Lee, ugh

4) Your current relationship ( Read more... )

Last night I got drunk for no reason. whiskey does NOT go well with grape juice. Sometimes, though, that's all you have to work with ( Read more... )

In real life, I can never wait to fill an old journal and start a new one.  My old journal went back as far as freshman year in college.  I thought it was time for a new one.