Okay, I have been running away from writing my thoughts down but nows the time. I dont know really where to start. I have been thinking about so much lately. Mostly the dream I had about Kelly's mom. And how my life is such a roller coaster but I always have my faith to turn back to everytime and it really grounds me. I just feel really privileged ( Read more... )

Ugh. OBLC is not what I thought it would be. But nothing in life is going to be that. I just have to make the best of it. I'm really glad that my roomate and I are getting along better...she tested me last week with the PT uniform, but I think conversation is getting better, and her opening up to me really helped open communication channels. I want ( Read more... )

I have only a few more weeks till I graduate. If I get this paper done. It just seems that I never have any time for myself anymore, I always want to be around Eric. Which I know is unhealthy b/c I need to time to think by myself, I need to rejuvinate myself, and its easier to appreciate someone when they arent there 24/7 and you see all of their ( Read more... )

I feel sick to my stomach. I dunno what the hell I'm doing in this life. I set out this summer to be independent, have a little fun, make an A in my class, get seriously fit, etc...then I meet a guy. He's not very good for me to be honest. I've let him control me. And now I'm walking on eggshells. I'm beginning to think its not worth it to fuss ( Read more... )

Wow. 2007! It turned out to be a great year for me afterall. I will never forget it. I've learned a lot, had a TON of new experiences and became a new person, learning what things matter the most. I know I made a lot of mistakes in 2007, and I'm glad for it in a way, and I'm also glad that God has given me a 2nd chance to learn, grow, and figure ( Read more... )

So. I had an amazing time for my 3rd time being in Aiken, and this time it wasnt stained by someone from my past. It was spent with some good people. This is what I've wanted, no drama that anyone started, just chill stuff, just hanging out, just thinking, just having a good time. And I was hot, my date was chill and hot, i got loved on but not too ( Read more... )

K5 Big E returned at 2:22:04 PM.K5 Big E: no problem, how are youSkdLsPn 3975: I am fineSkdLsPn 3975: how are you?K5 Big E: pretty good, really stressed trying to pack and moveSkdLsPn 3975: yeah that sucks but at least you arent bored!K5 Big E: no i am really tired thoughK5 Big E: i keep staying up too lateSkdLsPn 3975: yeah me tooSkdLsPn 3975: and ( Read more... )

"all things work for good for those who love the Lord." is what my Grammy told me this morning when trying to help me through this break up ( Read more... )

Wow...my life got turned upside down yesterday. I feel so empty and like I've lost a part of myself. I really gave a lot to Everett. I gave him my time and I gave him myself and I lost a part of me in all of that. But I knew that it wasnt working. It wasnt feeling right. I couldnt sleep with him comfortably and the sex was not good. I dont really ( Read more... )

I am very frustrated with my relationship right now. It is not great anymore. Was it ever? I asked everett to think of great things about our relationship and he wanted me to name a few and I couldnt think of any. The only things I can think of right now is that we both love old trucks, nature, mountain biking, outdoors, we dream together, we are ( Read more... )