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A long entry about this past year, and hopes for the next
I've always been afraid of change. even something as simple as the color of my room. being an adult is the most terrifying idea to me, but it must happen sometime I suppose. I mean, sure, I'm 26 and all... but when are you actually supposed to feel like an adult?
I've lived with Will for two years now. we have a house, dog, roommate, bills, jobs, ( Read more... ) -
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theres always something about this day. something thats always off in some way or another. some kind of awfullness around it. everyone has thier own part of it. we all somehow have a connection to one day. a day that holds so much sorrow, so much pain, that no one can escape it. for most it was the attack, for a close friend of mine it was the loss ( Read more... ) -
Life, Thank you
a year ago today, I was sitting on a table in the accord firehouse wearing Jody's sweatshirt leaning on Mike's shoulder with tears in my eyes while out on the floor, his sister and grandma sang landslide. i cried so hard that night. i thought things were changing and i was terrified. now here i sit on the couch of our apartment (mine and Will's) ( Read more... ) -
Moments
we're lying in bed with my head on your chest staring up into your eyes. I can see the emotion in your eyes and I want so badly to say it aloud. I know you're terrified of moving too quickly and scaring me away or messing up, so I let it go. But you saw it too. You call me out on it and ask for my opinion. I mumble something about maybe i'm falling ( Read more... ) -
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"Boy, you drive me crazy."
"I've been crazy since the first time you kissed me."
<3 Oh life.... -
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why can't the memory thing from Harry Potter be a real thing like now. i just wish i could save all my memories and be able to visit them when i want to without them being lost or changed. -
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Brain vs. Heart. Which one is gonna win? -
"Are you contagious too?"
so this past week has sucked. it was all sad and emo and icky emotional roller-coaster like. fuck that. I hate it. whine whine whine. sob sob sob.
up until my aunt talked to me <3 I love her so much. I've always been close with my aunt, but after her whole divorce and such, my dad's all like "OMG SHE'S GAY! STAY AWAY OR YOU'LL CATCH IT TOO!" oh ( Read more... )