This week as been a bunch of firsts for me ( Read more... )

I am totally in one of those moods where I am looking for anything to do besides homework. I have allready cleaned my room, the kitchen and Played some nintendo. I should take a nap, I dont know why/how I am awake. I went to bed at like 530 and was up at 11. I love the weekends :P ( Read more... )

I wanna go on a date.
Dont get me wrong, I like what I have going on now ALOT
But I do miss going out on Dates.
Can we like each other during the day and go on a date? :P

ps- I totally saw Confetti On Friday. We got drunk and Danced Danced Danced untill the wee hours and I loved every bit of It <333333

School is the shit.
I am soooo happy to be back x985956834 million.
I love my apartment, my roomies, all the old friends who I have started talking to again more(winky- wink), and all the new ones that I have met. I even like my job and classes this year. Fuck Yes! Soooo happy.

Well, untill last night when family came crashing down.... fuck that.

During the day, out of sight out of mind applies.
I keep myself busy talking to people about my issues and going out.
But at night you are all i can think about, all i can talk about.
Why does this have to be so confusing?
Why do I still have hope?

I will be the first to admit when im wrong ( Read more... )

I have been up for over the past 24 hours ( Read more... )

I feel awful. Out of nowhere pour these tears and comments, that I dont even believe are true. What is wrong with me? Why do I say things in the heat of a moment, only to later realize that they are not true and to regret them with all of my heart? Why do I feel saddened by people and then take out my sadness and anger on the one person who dosnt ( Read more... )

Sometimes I just want to cry.
And Cry and Cry untill i fall asleep.
Tonight will be one of those nights.

I just wanna be happy in my own skin.
I hate the way I feel.
I ate a veggie wrap and celery today, and i feel so fucking fat.
Ick, it is the grossest feeling ever.
No matter how hard I try, I will always be this way.
I will always be unhappy and un attractive.