How do you sleep well ( Read more... )

I pick too much. I read into things too much with him. WHY!?! There's no need for this. If I was more confident in where we stood...but too bad, I'm not. So I freak out. Why? Because I'm crazy about him. If I didn't give a shit, I wouldn't be so fucking paranoid. I wish I could stop it. I wish I didn't have to ruin the good things. I need to let go ( Read more... )

Well it's been one hell of a month. Or two, really. My 20th is right around the corner, and yes, I'm completely "buggin.'" I have been pissing a lot of people off (to those of you I have offended, I humbly beg your forgiveness-nobody reads this, so I'm apologizing to EMPTY SPACE) and I think I might have hammered the last nail on the coffin that ( Read more... )

Sooooo we don't have the utilities setup. Thing is, I don't get paid 'til Thursday. I'm fine without light (candles=awesome) but the whole heat thing, that might be an issue. No hot water? I mean...fuck. I move in tomorrow, and once I write them a check for my half of the rent, I will have 3 dollars in my account. I have 20 bucks in my wallet, but ( Read more... )

Soooo I move out THIS weekend, SATURDAY, FEBRUARY 10th, 2007. Frightening. I hope I have the F-N money. This is it, this is when I begin MY life, on MY terms. I'm scared. I'm finally having my life placed into my own hands, and it's all riding on me. I still feel so anxious, nervous, overwhelmed, etc...BUUUT I swear I'm working on thinking ( Read more... )

Life is pretty stressful, but I have a feeling things will turn around ( Read more... )

So my rents are cutting off my health insurance, car insurance, and cell phone. No more tuition, and they refuse to cosign for an apartment. HMMMMMM. I understand severing me from some of those things, but they never taught me what to do, I wish they weren't completely cutting me off. I hope this all works out. I need this all to work out. ( Read more... )

Nicolette is going to get engaged! And she's putting me in a teal bridesmaid dress....ewewewewew. NASTY. I'll do it because I love her. And I'm pretty sure I approve of her future husband. Is this setting the course for the rest of my life? Always a bridesmaid, NEVER A BRIDE! EMILY MIDLAM IS ENGAGED AS WELL! I'm so happy for her. I canceled on the ( Read more... )

Fuck you OSU. What the hell is wrong with you?!

Frustration. I've managed to royally fuck myself over again. I'm not exactly sure how I did it this time, but I know I KNOW somehow it was my doing that drove him away. Or I was seeing something that wasn't there, I don't know. But all signs pointed towards YES not NO. GOOD, not BAD. His choice of words, his actions, his body language, the look in ( Read more... )