weston park was strangely beautiful at 6 thismorning. smoking cones in a bright pink lycra dress. they got rid of the mousehouse. and now it's raining and warm. it's lovely. and i miss you. and sorry.

hey lady,
i want to kiss you
so stop looking over my shoulder
and reading this.

do i wish i'd never met him?
hell fucking yes.

i wish you'd given me some small piece of hate to cling to, so this whole mess could have worked out somehow.

you would be so proud of me right now. i look pregnant. no it´s not from seducing rockstars and bearing a love child. it´s from stuffing my face with pretzels.

got about 10hrs sleep total for my whole time in greece. have the worst tanlines. i'm living in my little flat in london now. the gossip show was actually so good!! the markets here are insane. i have bought you all so much crap. i have no idea how i possibly am gonna get it home. uhhmmmm that's all to report for now. i miss you all...have fun at ( Read more... )

amsterdam was so good. except our hostel room was up 5 flights of ridiculously steep spiral stairs. so that was a suicide mission to get up each night. i havent bothered listening to a chilli's cd since like yr 9..but live they were fantastic. going to greece on friday. on the day we get back the flight gets in at 5:30 and we have gossip tix for 7: ( Read more... )

i haven't used this ridiculous thing for about 10 million years. now it seems like my only hope of actually remembering the last two weeks, so here goes ( Read more... )

'And when I suck you off not a drop will go to waste
Its really not so bad you know once you get past the taste, yeah'

and then they offered a plane ticket for my birthday
and now i don't know

if cancer could stop ruining our lives
if friendships were strong enough to stand it
if i thought i could leave you.

things i miss:

• John
• every black sabbath cd in my collection that anna stole
• Bee + Vic
• being able to sleep at night
• everyone being open with each other, and not ignoring their friends

Dear usual suspects

shall we go perve on Jonny Depp tomorrow, it being cheapo tuesday?

love you all very much. also hate being at the library very much.

from nic.