I'm so fucking relieved. What a great experience this has all been.

I just can't deal with that face and everything that it stirs in me.

oh man.

Alcohol, Nyquil, nothing will keep me asleep. I haven't ever had these kind of problems sleeping. A month ago I think I felt physically as good as I ever had in my life, now I feel the absolute worst I ever have. Stress and anxiety, a bad mattress, its all fucking me in the head (and the back). I've never missed this many classes either. I ( Read more... )

Can I please just feel normal physically for a few months in a row. I'm 20 and I feel like I'm falling apart and its become far to stressful for me. Didn't do anything this weekend because I felt like shit most of it.

So today I was riding my bike around campus and there was a squirrel on the grass next to the brick pathway. As I was getting closer he had that look of being unsure what he was going to do because something big was getting close to it. So right as I'm riding by, the fucking thing jumps out into the path and crashes into the side of my wheel. ( Read more... )

of all the fucking nights to not be able to fall asleep (at all). Hopefully I survive this week.

this anxiety is going to end me one day.

Falling into the same traps as last year....need to get my shit together post haste.

some sort of divine intervention stopped me from whiping out really badly on my bike tonight. why am i perpetually beating myself up lately?

things aren't hurting as bad though, be that emotional or physical wounds, so thats good.

also, i don't know whats much better for you than an hour ride in the woods. fucking beat after that one though.