A Watch That Won't Work.

[jewcyjuice]

It would be easy to say that I am angry because I did not get what I wanted. Or that I will not get what I want. Or that I decided that what I wanted wasn't really what I wanted after everything was said and done. But all of that is no good, as it's largely irrelevant and it's time to be brutally honest. I want to tell all of my friends the same

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[accdntlcharm]

I can't help but wonder what you mean when you use the terms "come together" and "break apart", but I might have a vague idea. But what's the use in guessing?

Glad to hear that D.E. is going well. Despite its dangers, it is comforting in that you actually have a tangible measure of how far away you are from a certain sort of freedom.

And as hard as it is to watch the current rise against you, or hear an incoherent saga unfold, it happens. Shit happens. It hits the fan and breaks your heart and rips you into pieces. So what happens when what's left of you is stronger than the original? It's got to be possible to live again, to do better than you'd thought you could. "Thank you" doesn't express enough of my gratitude for that. It was exactly what I needed on the eve of something I'd rather not remember.

Oh, Bright Eyes and the Format! <3 I'm proud to say that the latter band originated in my home state. Unfortunately, the majority of the rest of our local music sucks. Oh, and the "Coinstar salary" you received isn't exactly

[jewcyjuice]

Coming together and breaking apart. Come to think of it, I'm not quite sure how and why I chose those words. Probably because it's all I've been doing lately. I see it in others because I see it in myself.

Very true about Driver Ed.
It's more important than I'd given it credit for being in the past.

I'm really glad I wrote what I did if it made you feel better. Even when I'm bringing myself down (or talking myself up), I never stop hoping I'm letting someone else in on something bigger than me and my singular thoughts. ♥

The Format is so fantastic. I came across them by accident (as I do for... well, actually, quite a lot of musical experiences) and I'm really thrilled I did. From AZ? Very cool. I've been to Arizona a few times, when I was much younger, but never Phoenix. I think I'd like it best.

Coinstar, my home away from home. I don't even mind them stealing my quarters :)

Thank you! I really like that picture of me. A friend took it for a photo project. It's the most real I've looked in quite some time.

[jewcyjuice]

Exactly! I never realized how many doors driving opens up. Well, at least not until it was so close... so nearly possible. It's like looking into something you can't touch, but you know that sometime that will all change. And so it's not as bad as it was before, but it's also a different kind of good. Blah.

MCR and The Mars Volta? Aw. Right on.
Bitter? You? No freaking way, woman.

I've definitely learned more about myself by getting past anger than not experienceing it at all. Definitely. That's how I feel too.

ha. I'd give you some change if I could :) coinstar would be glad to have you. I'm quite a loyal patron.

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[babeisarocker5]

sounds good? well the driving is a nice step ahead. i still have to get my permit...everone is bugging me about that. i'm behind. :/

I want to go see the format too! concerts in view just over the horizon somehow makes everything better. just for a little bit.

i love the metaphor of the plot summary...made me smile.

[jewcyjuice]

man, driving is such a big thing. but it's really cool (and equally scary) once you start :)

exactly! and the format is just that good. it's a nice way to get into spring, too.

thanks! you of all people would enjoy my english-y quirks.

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