i feel like im on a faltering wavelength. slowly unwinding, its peaks flattening, its troughs being pulled up. . last night, the peak. many feelings, slowed by pleasure extreme, and many strings pulled in my mind. expression revealed. i knew. to see truly is one of the deepest truths i've felt. to see truly is what matters to me most - ( Read more... )

: Leftovers-What is Left ( Read more... )

so much has occurred since last i wrote. some revelations. changes in awareness of my life. awareness of my constant struggle and trying to be seen. wondering what people think of me, how im perceived - wondering how the next months will unfold? wondering if i am not as smart as i think am - that maybe i really dont know what's going on? ( Read more... )

you know their secrets ( Read more... )

it's been a long time since i felt so pessimistic about progress. with deeper awareness of our culture, of this modern civilization, of the superiority of humans on the living earth - im left wondering: what am i to do ( Read more... )

this changing tide we're in. i wonder why we've created this. i think we can all agree there is a better way - what's stopping us? what's preventing us from fulfilling our highest potential? nations feel separate. iraq is separate from us. that part of the world is separate from us. how do we see that we are interdependent - that we are one ( Read more... )

faced with questions. are they deep enough. am i dedicated enough. i know what i should do - look inward now, but even though we know what to do - we indulge in careless laziness, and then look back fretfully.. why? because we really dont trust ourselves. . we lack motivation? lack clarity ( Read more... )

Teachings about reincarnation that say we live one life after the next over eons, suffering pain and confusion until we eventually reach God and nirvana are not really true. I think reincarnation is probably just a spooky idea invented to stall you. To ensure you don

ah, feeling tired tonight. awareness ( Read more... )

there's a yogi quote on my desk at work, that says something like, without knowing who you are, happiness cannot come to you. the knowledge of who you are. hmm ( Read more... )