Happiness Scares Me...

[jewels44]

I've always known this about me, but have been able to put it into words these past few days. As much as I want to meet the right person, get married and have children, I don't get cold feet, they're blocks of ice and I walk away. I'm never truly happy... I meet someone, I'm beyond happy for a while, come to think this is it and then it starts

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[krissie36]

Sometimes realizing it is the first step, and makes it that much easier to deal with it.

I think that talking to Daniel will be really helpful for you...at least this way, you can tell him what's going on in your head, and he's aware of what's happening and doesn't think the worst if (god forbid) things start to go downhill.

We're in a similar boat Bella....it's the fear of the unknown, I guess. The grass is always greener on the other side! :P I always think "what if"...to the point where I'm analyzing things that didn't need analyzing in the first place! All it does is get you stressed out about problems that either don't exist or are way smaller than you think they are.

But, once you realize that (like it seems you have), it's a lot easier to deal with it.
Talk to Daniel, do whatever you need to do to make yourself happy, and know that I'm here if you want/need help with anything.

[jewels44]

Thanks Bella, it's hard and there are harder days then others, but I'm working on it. And after last night, and knowing I have such a wonderful boyfriend, I think I'll get through it. :)

Hugs xxx