I've been lacking so much sleep ever since classes started. While I was showering a few weeks ago I had some sort of stroke-ish/brain spasm attack. I was feeling completely fine one min. then suddenly I was short of breath and this intense sense of nausea came over me. All the while I started blacking out on top of feeling, in a lack of better ( Read more... )

I'm finally going home. After I sleep, I'll take off. I'll leave it all behind. In due time I'll be back, and remember the things I didn't pack/pick it up again and decide what is trash.

Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||| 30% Stability |||||||||||||||| 66% Orderliness |||||||||||||| 53% Altruism |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Interdependence |||||||||||| 50% Intellectual |||||||||||||||| 70% Mystical |||||| 30% Artistic |||||||||||||||||| 76% Religious || 10% Hedonism |||||||||| 36% ( Read more... )

I feel like the ball in Pong.

I overthink, meaning, usually I come with the worse scenario first. Then it all bothers me until something happens in real life that disproves my thinking. Then, I think, it's not so bad. I do mean something. What I do does make a difference. People do care. At the end, I have to just trust myself and be proud of the morals that I have. And trust ( Read more... )

stuff I've learned:
I've realized that I've lost myself for awhile. I tugged away my thoughts in fear of saying something that would be taken the wrong way. Red tapes and barricades criss-crossed every which way in my head until I was totally consumed by caution. Where was I? What happened to letting it all go? If I have to edit everything that I ( Read more... )

what happened i can't even discribe. i have a gut feeling and it isn't good. and all and all it has to come during a time when there's too much to handle already. why bother. why bother. one time i realize the fault that was never mine. and engage in a dance that I was never asked to. the match dims out as I'm desperately trying to see, to catch ( Read more... )

right now I'm feeling almost on the brink of collapse. I'm just waiting and idle with nothing else interesting to do. kinda histerical from the lack of sleep. for some reason I couldn't sleep last night. I was stubbornly awake since around four. It was hard for me to stay in one position too long so I probably ended up disturbing caleb. wonderful. ( Read more... )

by a random spectacular turn of events, I've discovered that the fireworks animation at the end of a winning spider solitaire game syncs with "blame it on the tetons" by modest mouse

who's my best friend and secret lover??
that's right lindsey can kiss my ass
and yeah my guys are hot