i seriously need to learn exactly what i want and dont want. cause i am so goddamn indecisive. i'm pretty lonely. And i dont think its just the fact that i'm missing a boyfriend, i just dont have any close friends around WPI at the moment. i dont have anyone i can call and just be like, "hey, you wanna hang out?" whenever i'm bored or something. ( Read more... )

i still wonder about my life.  i still wonder if T and i were still really meant to be together forever (cause i felt that way once, and what are the odds that i'm gonna feel that way about someone else again?).  He's changed so much, and so have i, and i dont even think we'd be compatable anymore. We basically can't stand eachother, and it makes ( Read more... )

people are stupid ( Read more... )

I’ll be that girl

I’ll cry instead

I’ll get you

I’m going slightly mad

I’m happy just to dance with you

I’m in touch with your world

I’m lost without you

I’m the least you could do

I am an illusion

I am in love with you

I believe in you

I call your name

I can’t win

I feel fine

I feel love

I have seen

I hope you die

I know

I like ( Read more... )

I didnt think this would happen, but im getting pretty homesick in thailand. The project sucks, we have a ton of work to do, our advisors are assholes, my best friend here is turning out to be a mean condescending douche bag, and people are just annoying the fuck out of me. I miss craig and jessica, and hell, im even starting to miss dan. Never ( Read more... )

Dan and i broke up for many a reason, but mainly because there was just something MAJOR missing from our relationship, i dont know that it is, but i couldnt really be myself around him and he's wayyyyy too closed minded for me. conservatives...haha. He definitely loved me enough to want to be with me forever, and i never felt that way towards him. ( Read more... )

Things with Dan are going great. He's absolutely wonderful. I went home with him over break to his hometown in mass. we went to an apple farm and met his mom and sister there. They are both really nice, along with the rest of his family of course. We bought cider and went on a hay ride (sans hay...which was strange). he took me to this awesome park ( Read more... )

so i have a new boyfriend. his name is dan. he's awesome. we met at a party like 10 days ago. The night of the party we danced all night and he drove me home, walked me to my door, and kissed me on the cheek. I havent met a sweet guy like that in forever. most guys just wanna have fun if you know what i mean, and im not into that ( Read more... )

some people cannot take a fucking hint, or they don't get it when i pretty much tell them straight out how i feel.

FUCK!

so that last entry sounded like i did something terrible, but i didnt mean to make it sound that bad. haha. so there. i just do stupid shit sometimes and its gonna come around to bite me in the ass. shit happens.