Go figure the way things go in life. I spent so much damn time just trying to figure out what it is exactly that I like and want and yet still I don't know. Why? I know that life is supposed to be a journey or something stupid like that. But why can't I have at least some answers at some point? I've learned a whole lot about people in the last 6 ( Read more... )

So how funny that when your friends tell you all the time that "they just want you to be happy" and then once you actually are....they turn on you and think you're a horrid bitch ( Read more... )

I'm SO sick and fucking tired of people claiming to be my friend...and listening to me talk about all the shit thats going on in MY life and TRUSTING them with it...to find out that they FUCKING stab me in the back and hate me ANYWAY. I'm so sick and tired of people who tell me one thing, and tell someone else another. If you FUCKING don't agree w/ ( Read more... )

So in a matter of a month, I have managed to ruin almost everything I have. I'm not exactly sure how or why. I broke up with Jen, thinking that it would be the best thing for me, because I was entirely too interested in Lisa. And not that I wanted to be with Lisa, but it just wasn't fair to myself or anyone else with how I was feeling. And although ( Read more... )

What is it that I'm missing that makes girls determined to look me over? They tell everyone that they know that its their loss about me but they don't ever take a chance on me. I'm not sure what it is I did along the way, but I fucked it up. I'm never anythin that they want. I'm never the one that they look for. If I don't make the first move, then ( Read more... )

Why does this pain grow ( Read more... )

So easy to tell you yes while I’m screaming to tell you no ( Read more... )

Yes its wrong ( Read more... )

You never know how deep it goes ( Read more... )

So writing this could someday get me into some sort of trouble I'm sure, but unfortunatly in the scheme of my life, and having the friends I do, I can't talk to them about it, because they would think I had lost my mind. That leaves me here. So time to "talk" I suppose ( Read more... )