They call them crushes for a reason.
Oh, darling, all of these jump-start stalling conversations mean much more to me than anything.He is the most beautiful creature on this earth. Oh, darling. Big brown eyes, thin limbed, tall, smiling and I'm dying, I swear to God. He's attached to someone else, he's moving away. And don't you just know it. I ( Read more... )

She brushed the dog's hair and it went everywhere around her. All over the ground around her feet. It was disgusting. I kept staring at the scattered remains of the daffodils I'd been picking at. I cleared the area surrounding me of grass and flowers. I cried and thought, Jeez, Mom, just hit me on all sides, please. The thing is, I know she means ( Read more... )

I could do a better job of masking my contempt.
Oh, the world is so unjust. Why can't I just do what I want and let everyone else suffer the consequences? Why can't I just be the brat I was born to be and make everyone else deal with it?

(but then she's high and holding hands and digging this song and that flower is so pretty. and the world seems ( Read more... )

I feel like staring into the sun until I go blind.
Gentlemen, choose your vices!

(tired and indiscreetly unsatisfied, she is stumbling from one dream to another and she aches from the lack of joy in everything she sees. my dream this morning was so terrifying that i tried so hard to wake myself up but only ended up sleeping late. i didn't escape ( Read more... )

There's something that's invisible. And I feel better, but I only know that because I'm watching myself from a distance. I don't feel attached to my body, but I'm watching and I see that maybe I'm smiling more or my hands are moving differently. I miss everyone all of the time, even when I'm with them. It feels like they're right in front of me, ( Read more... )

My sleep is so fucked up. I wake up from these dreams and I feel like I haven't rested at all.

(i don't know how to express how beautiful she is. the last time she was here, i was left with that sinking feeling of jealousy. jealous of the hand she's holding, jealous of those whispers in her ear. darling girl, how many people have watched you from ( Read more... )