So I talked to Shamar yesterday about prom, were still going to that together, i was also informed this is only a break. sort of a relief. however, I talked to my friends, they brought something to my attention that is rather disturbing to me. The fact that I busted my balls, made sacrifices, and kept myself and her as happy as I could, which ( Read more... )

I said i'd update after I talked to her. Well we talked, she broke up with me. So i'm left here with nothing. This is the first time I ever cried over a girl breaking up with me. Here goes my best explanation as to how I feel(in words). In all most every case with a female, i've been screwed over/cheated on. I thought possibly this would've ( Read more... )

It's starting to get old that I must go to my girlfriends friends in a means to communicate with my girlfriend. I don't know anymore, as in being with her. Seriously I feel like i'm wasting my time now. I love this girl to death, but it's not fair that I don't know how she feels. How secure is it that you never had your girlfriend actually tell ( Read more... )

I love her. I know a lot of people jump into relationships and within a week say "I love them" "I'm in love"... not here. FlashBack: Last year (keep in mind I believe in love at first sight) I noticed this smiley, energetic brunette that I never spoke to, but whom has a smile I fell in love with. Over the course of a few weeks with the ( Read more... )

So in any event I always feel unwanted or about to get screwed over. Sucks. A few people I despise as of now... BM and JD fucker. Hmm I feel betrayel though only one of them I know, if you read this and want to know ask me and i'll be sure to fill you in. I hate how you erupt with smiles when the presence of another guy dawns upon us. Sucks ( Read more... )

Sometimes it sucks when you have the one person who makes you smile, make you not smile. Maybe it's because they light up more around other guys then you or how they can and are willing to talk to other guys more then they are you. Sometimes it sucks to feel used when you may very well be, but you never know. I'm pretty sad right now. Don't ( Read more... )

This day forward is such an amazing band. Saw them once, they outplayed Thursday like whoa. Hmm i'm happy. That girl I spoke of in previous entries, well she's my gf now. Yes my gf. Yay! And yes i am making her happy. Very happppy. Unless if she secretly hates on me. But I don't think so. I've been pretty fucking pissed off lately though ( Read more... )

I have failed to stop thinking about you. Hmm I like it though. I did purchase a valentine 'thing' for her. I hope it makes her happy and I hope something happens after valentines day. It's really hard to deal with not actually being her boyfriend because I feel like I am, and we seem to be on the verge of a relationship, but for some reason I ( Read more... )

How many guys do you know, whom after getting shitted on before by a girl would go back and try again with her. Then slightly into this ordeal, the same thing seems to unfold, that is me and i'm stupid. Why the fuck would I let this reiterate itself back into my fucking head. I do not know, she doesn't realize what she could have in me. Yeah ( Read more... )

I have something, I think so atleast, that I don't want to lose. It's a girl of course. Having her in the way that she has feelings for me, but I don't know if she actually wants me as a boyfriend. But I feel like i'm slipping away or she's slipping away from me, either way, makes me sad.