Right now, i'm crying. A lot. I just feel like I have nothing and nothing will ever come of anything. I hate this feeling. And I hate that it happens to me all the time. I can't do anything about this, but I feel like i'm falling big time. I don't know what i've ever done to anyone that was bad. Who have I ever shitted on so badly that I ( Read more... )

FUCK OFF

So. I realized why people talk to me. Atleast in a sense that's less coherent then a biased opinion would grant. People I know or claim to be close to me fucking suck(the majority). Like I bet you sitting there(if you know me) reading this prolly fucking suck, and if you take offense to that at all, then guess what you just proved it to ( Read more... )

I haven't updated this in awhile. Here goes, the problems with sh have grown and grown. I never get a break, even now. Yes I am getting over her, yay, however, it doesn't make a difference to me. I find things out and it hurts to know things because it really makes me feel like I am nothing to a person I cared so much about. People say they ( Read more... )

yeah i never knew how much it sucks to actually here those words. i'm starting think that i am worthless. even now after all this shit, you still make me feel like i'm insignificant, you treat me the same you did before? I think that should tell me to get the fuck over you and take what I feel somewhere else. I hate how you know things are ( Read more... )

Feelings are the one thing that can make you feel so good and feel the point of wanting to kill yourself. It shouldn't be that way. I can't describe feelings anymore. They grow to complex now. Here is something short i wrote, will be next lyrics to fallen requiem new song ( Read more... )

I suppose today was the official end(closure) to this bullshit between sh and I. I'm so bitter right now and I really have no one to talk to, but i'm more pleased with going "solo" on this then anything. I never felt the way I have about a girl before and she claims breaking up with me is doing me a favor? What the fuck is that? That is the ( Read more... )

i hate this. i never know what to do anymore. i am so depressed right now and its hard to turn to people for some reason. i dont want to talk to anyone about it and i should. i need to forget about it but its so hard when you care so much. i fucking hate this. i want to kill myself right now.

I just had a dream about this one night you made me feel like shit. Well last night I slept at casey wolfes and talked to ben forever hence me dreaming this. But it was awhile at a party Ben had for Andrew Helsel(sp?), in which you called me and told me to attend. Well I was on my way home from a show that was about an hour away, and the snow ( Read more... )

I think this sucks. I'm trying my hardest to play off the the fact that i'm broken hearted, but it hurts to much. I know I probably cannot get back into her arms anytime soon so it would make sense to bounce, but for some reason I can't leave and get her out of my head. It's not good at all, then seeing her last night at her house it just ( Read more... )