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Songs Of Necessity
Solemnly sitting in my own shadow. I dare not light a candle for fear of losing myself in the endless desire for light. I close my eyes and the reality before me shifts not. The same images still haunt my mind. I desire contact with the wind and contact with the bird and contact with the moon. They were all supposed to come together as one. ( Read more... ) -
The Darkness
That which I am.
That which I cannot flee.
Trapped forevermore, within the pain of my destiny. -
A Small Recovery, But The Pain Remains.
I am not sure if I am yet done with beating myself up over my own failures. Though, I have stopped for the time being. My hands shake violently with love, despair, and hate. Five years later and I return to the same exact emotion of that day. Over sixty moons, and I've learned nothing from any of them. How is it so hard with myself to do this ( Read more... ) -
A Struggle Within Myself, A Struggle Without Myself.
I learn a simple answer today of why my life is the way it is. And I find myself not wanting to believe it. I try to meditate further into myself to see the real answer, but can find no alternative that I like. A stinging sensation runs up through my body, and I begin to shake. An overflowing emotion takes hold of me, and I burst into tears ( Read more... ) -
The Path To Understanding the Moon.
She shines brightly for me this night. Though I seek her guidance not her beauty ( Read more... ) -
Perceptions to be Corrected
I spend the next day wondering why I failed to control my own memories, and how they were able to strike me back so effortlessly. I focus my thoughts on what was wrong with my methods. I realize in brief epiphany, I am focusing too much on my physical senses of the world, and not enough on the existence of the sensation itself ( Read more... ) -
In the Din of Colors
The next step would involve much more than I cared to think about. It would involve a great deal of physical and emotional pain and test the limits of my mind to endure it all. I must walk through my own existence, my own memories, and my own emotions. I must find the moments in my life that hurt the most and live them through again ( Read more... ) -
Into the World of Gods
I began to feel a slight relief, but that was to be expected, and I could ignore it if it didn't get any worse. I dropped my eyes from the glass in front of me and studied the sigil that glowed in my mind ( Read more... ) -
Flame in the Night
As I stare into the eyes of the demon goddess, I can hear a small roar in the back of my head, although slight, the taste of metal is reaching my stomach, and this smell ( Read more... ) -
The World of Mirrors.
I stand before the cool, flat glass repeating my truths and my lies to the image before me ( Read more... )