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BECOMING A MOMMY AT 36 wow!
Ok so not really a mommy,its actually my niece but I have decided to document this journey.First of all i have to make one thing clear at least for myself. I am not trying to steal my sisters kids or take their places in their kids lives like some creepos out there.I have two sisters,that were actually cousins at one point however my mom helped ( Read more... ) -
Another Christmas without my beloved daughter...
yup its another year without her since the ex wanted to be an ass clown and cut me off from seeing her.she will be 16 in june.and i hope she still loves me and remembers where to find me.so merry christmas my sweet girl!!other than that life is on a roller coaster again.im so worried about my sisters kids.i believe she will be ringing in a new year ( Read more... ) -
PAIN MEDS DOWN SOUTH
Have you ever looked for a legit pain management in florida?lmao good luck.my mother has been under pain management for over 20 years.she has tons of perm. injuries with cat scans and xrays.she has extensive medical records and pharmacy records.however every place i call is so seedy.they want anywhere 250 to 600 dollars a visit plus meds.they dont ( Read more... ) -
EMPTY
SO ...my mom came home on dec 22 i think.she has been on her meds.the aunt that screwed her over royally is no longer in the picture.i hear she and her boyfriend both on strung out on meth.i believe it.i guess i should say shes strung out worse than usual since shes been an addict most of her life.she is still telling everyone she has cancer ( Read more... ) -
my daughter and random thoughts.
these are from sept. 2010 i have blogged and posted on so many sites im trying to combine just to this site.
THE LOVE OF MY LIFE
FEW WEEKS AGO.
WENT TO GO CHECK ON THE HOUSE MY EX HUSBAND AND I HAD TOGETHER AFTER 3 YRS OF SEPERATION.
DIVORCE WILL BE FINAL IN OCT. THANK GOD.
THE SMELL ALMOST KNOCKED ME OVER.
NOT THE WARM SPICE AND COOKIE SMELLS FROM MY ( Read more... ) -
IM BACK!!!
ok so im back on lj.thanks to my hunny chantel =] lots of updates.biggest one im still alive!!my ex hasnt killed me yet.i will be posting updtes.wow ive been off of here over a year.feels good to be back.i didnt like xanga very much =[ -
ALMOST ONE YEAR SINCE I LAST CUT
IT WILL BE ONE YEAR IN APRIL SINCE I CUT.I HOPE I NEVER CUT AGAIN.THE LAST EPISODE COST ME 400+ SUTURES.I LOOK AT THE PIC AND GO OMG I CANT BELIEVE I DID THAT.NOT TO MENTION THE PAIN I STILL FEEL FROM IT.NERVE DAMAGE FOR SURE.I THINK IM HEALING MENTALLY VERY SLOWLY.
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Bi Polar Life
Tuesday, 14 December 2010
The Coldest Winter In My Heart
The last 7 months have been the worse so far.My mother has struggled with mental problems for the last 15 years or so.However I had no clue how much worse it would get.She has declined a little more year by year.Her psych is not much help.Hell I think she even ( Read more... )
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MY MRI RESULTS
WELL I DEF HAVE UNKNOWN LIGHT COLORED MATTER IN MY BRAIN AND WILL BE GETTING AN APPT IN THE MAIL FOR A BRAIN BIOPSY.MOST LIKELY IT WAS CAUSED FROM ALL THE BLOWS TO MY HEAD FROM MY EX.IVE BEEN IN AND OUT OF THE HOSPITAL FOR 2 WEEKS.BRAIN BIOPSY=SCARY SHIT.YOU ARE AWAKE FOR ALL OF IT.IM TOO YOUNG TO DIE ALTHOUGH I DONT VALUE MY LIFE TOO MUCH ANYMORE ( Read more... ) -
UPDATE ON MY LIFE IN THE COURT ROOM
ok so my ex did not show up for the final hearing on the injunction{he was not required to be there} so i was granted a life time restraining order.and the court served him legal orders to surrender my gun to the sheriffs office.another good thing to know the animal service deputy has offically charged him with cruelty and neglect.so now hes facing ( Read more... )