its the 19th of the first month of the 4th year in our new millennium and i have found relief in cutting. very meticulous and small yet beautiful as it bleeds. Its dance's in the water and i like the way it moves.

Ok so if you think about the "normal" people how much time in the day do you think they spend thinking about food ? i would say like at least 8-10 hours of it. that is NUTS!! do you know what a person could get done in that time frame?! omg he phrase is "there is not enof time in the day" UM i think it should be " there is to much of an abundance ( Read more... )

new study ( Read more... )

Its my body! I say whats healthy!

Read with a mirror : SENOB ERA LUFITUAEB

4 lbs gone in 48 hours, i can taste my goal (no pun intended)hehe any way i was apsolutely discusting and had a 12pm bing. A couple saltes with 1/2 a slices worth of cheese, and a bite of wedding cake. worked real hard to get it out but i was unsuccsesful, took 3 table spoons of Phillips laxs and i think i am good. Today i had a 1/2 hard candy and ( Read more... )

whipcram26: no i reliy on al for comfert that he can't offer
whipcram26: but he won't deal with me
SWATRecrt704: whats that mean?
it means i have issues and people want to swoop in like a star and save me and i don't need that, nor will that happen cuz i am too damn stubern

whipcram26: for a long time i relided on other people for answers or to be happy and i am over it, i found my own happyness

i have an ed and tryed to reach for help or what ever as pita-full as that sounds it back fiered, so don't bother telling anyone cuz its your power, your streanth, your need ( Read more... )

Day 2 on the fast that i plain to go for till next wensday, she as in my mother adds the process a lot. she is a constant reminder how much better i have to be, goal oriented all the time! 112 is my long term and 118 is my short, today i had two cups of coffie and a hard candy.

i normaly am hungery but i want to know what its like to really know hunger - fast day 1 - 2 mints