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i read psalm 11 today. and it was awesome. if you didnt read it today. its very short and so worth reading, if you have 60 seconds. sheesh. what are we all doing with our time anyways?

i left someone that loves XBOX, beer, and World of Warcraft, more than me. how hard is it to put the controller down and call your own girlfriend? it's an addiction? why do i feel bad? why do i feel like i'm missing something? or even missing him? i'm SO stupid. but i know i will get over that. hahahahhhhhahaa. no really. its ok. im ok. these ( Read more... )

shouldnt have done that i see. i see it. dont worry.

am i okay? someday i will be. when there are no humans left for me to care about.

my friend asked me what dating was like. i told him, "Hell's rollercoaster."

i dont even know how i have any heart left to break. but its happening anyways.

I want a black and white world. I want stark contrast for less confusion. I want to be someone else, someone living in ignorant bliss. I envy that sincere smile.

right after i just told someone how i liked talking to you because i don't have to worry about you hitting on me or trying to touch me. that i was safe from that. seriously. really now. seriously. ugh. and now that i know you had intentions of using me. that you think i'm really that easy. i cant even look at you. sucks. seriously.

i am just as trapped by legalism as i ever was. shoot. how do you just NOT wallow?

new observation. i dont really get my hopes up for anything anymore. makes me safe and numb. and miserable.

i want nothing to do with me.

so that sucks.

'i hope that's comforting'

you will never know my gratitude.