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[jilleighsoprano]

Do you ever feel like you have so much to say, but the words just don't come out? I've felt that way a lot lately.

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[savannah_jane]

OK, Jill, I know I don't know you well at all, and I know I'm prolly just one of Allen's friend's to you, BUT...

I have totally been there, and I completely feel for you! I seriously started crying when I read this entry (and it could just be cuz I'm emotional) but you are totally in my prayers. I know how hard this is for you, pretty much all of it, and I feel for ya sista. If you EVER need someone to talk to, you can always IM me, (missamyjohall) and I know it doesn't help at all, but you know you'll be a better person for going thru all this! Ok, I'll let you go, Sorry for rambling so, but good luck!!
Amy Jo

[jilleighsoprano]

Thanks for everything you did for both me and Allen this past year. You are an awesome friend to him, and a great person as well. And thank you for the prayers, I really appreciate it.

<3 Jill

[candiland30]

I feel the same way! We are all (well most of us) on the cusp of graduating, and none of us know what the future will hold for us. I think this is the point where we become adults; we don't have anyone to show us the way we have to find out own paths and this is the first time that we do this completely on our own.

I also feel that we as a group are not as close as we should be. I think that is because we are hiding our feelings from each other! I am scared as hell about my future!! I have never told anyone. I think we mask all this with our drinking, we use it as an excuse to not talk to one another about stuff. I am going to miss you around here, it has not and will not be the same, I can't just wonder into your bedroom and talk about what is bothering me, and that is sad.

I don't know how you feel about your grandpa, but I have had a taste with my grandpa's uncertain health and it is hell, I can't imagine what you are going thorough. All I can say is that I am here if you need me.

[rainingpez]

I agree. I miss how things used to be when we were all freshmen and had just about no worries, other than how broke we all were and our uberdifficult 100-level classes (I miss those). I think it's thrown everyone off quite a bit with all the shit that has gone down between each of us individually and as a group (which mostly I consider myself apart from) and it's messed us all up pretty bad...some of us changing for the better, worse, and just plain changing. I hope things start to look brighter. I miss you Jill.

[flowerxgrlx02]

i miss you soooo much jill, i can honestly say that ive never met anyone like you, the time in pittsburgh was an experience i will never forget and i made great friends with people like you, and i wouldnt trade it for the world, i miss it soooo much. love you ~ruth

"He's Cleaning me! He's Purging me! and He's Moving me around!

[number83]

I feel it necessary in my heart to say some things about this post. First of all, i have been there with you through mainly everything and as i reached the end of your post when you were talking about your grandfather and what audra wrote, i felt very full.i was filled with such an emotion that it brought me to tears. even as i sit here i feel so filled with hurt, anger, love, frustration, sadness, and so much more. i am swamped with emotion and understanding. i understand every last thing you have written in this post and i feel so deeply. i love you jill. NO ONE COULD EVER TAKE THAT AWAY FROM ME! EVER!! i dont care what anyone says, because you and i both know the love we share. "you and i both loved what you and i spoke of." It hurts me to watch how difficult things got this summer for you. You know, i'm not 21, but i know exactly wht you are feeling and what you are going through. i am right there with you. i cant drink legally, but i know that life is kicking the shit out of us. Many of us FRIENDS come from nothing at all, and