Flies are buzzing around my head
Vultures circling the dead
Picking up every last crumb
Big fish eat the little ones
Big fish eat the little ones
Not my problem give me some

You can try the best you can
If you try the best you can
The best you can is good enough
The best you can is good enough

This one's optimistic
This one went to market
This ( Read more... )

For the longest time I've been convinced that the world as a whole has come to where it is because cruelties drive most lives, in one way or another. But I've been pondering this more recently, especially when my bad temper flares up, and I've come to the decision that everything is how it is because it's so easy to hate, and a lot harder to love ( Read more... )

He keeps a journal and all the curiosity in the world to see what's inside could not overshadow the fear about the truth of his heart, which he feels he cannot tell me.

However, it's cruel to make mention of me there when he so rarely does anywhere else his pen or fingertips may stray.

To brace myself against the inevitable impact of the drastic changes soon to come, I find myself feeling very little outside of social interactions. When I meditate on the end of the semester, the summer, and my last semester to come, I believe I turn away from the fact that I've largely ignored those in my home under the excuse of needing to ( Read more... )

I've come to hate being open and unrestrained.
I hate how people take advantage of me.
I hate coming to trust a person and letting them in, and then getting doubts about their fidelity in all matters because I feel they're betraying my trust, knowing how easy it is to do so. Giving my heart away and being so happy, and then feeling it all crash when ( Read more... )

I've been dreaming a lot lately but I can't remember any of them.

I know I'm walking around a lot. I'm seeing different places. Lots of hallways and corridors.

Are they mirroring my life? I've heard that dreams are your brain's way of filing through what you've been through to pick out the important stuff and trash the rest.
Am I seeing the important ( Read more... )

And you open the door and you step inside
We're inside our hearts
Now imagine your pain as a white ball of healing light
That's right, your pain
The pain itself is a white ball of healing light
I don't think so

This is your life, good to the last drop
Doesn't get any better than this
This is your life and it's ending one minute at a time

This isn't a ( Read more... )

I feel it too. I hope I haven't been sending too many of those signals to you. I barely talk to my own family when I'm away...it's a problem. It's not healthy for me to push people away. And keep them shut out of my life while I'm away. I get so caught up in everything that I'm doing here that I make excuses not to pick up the phone, or to call ( Read more... )

I'm feeling some serious anxiety about the next three weeks ( Read more... )

  Zombies for halloween, so gross that we creeped people out, and I was so proud because I did all the makeup!!!! photos will be on facebook sooner rather than later, even though technically they should be last of the over 300 photos I have to upload spanning from the beginning of the year. James is begging to get the zed pics up, so naturally I ( Read more... )