i dont know what to do anymore. i am once again lost. lost i say. i wish i could fix some of what i am but i fear i can't, its just not going to happen. i am lost i say.

so life is good still, i dont know why i feel the need to write in this thing once every blue moon. i guess its kind of soothing to shout at the walls though. so there is that. but things are good, i dont know where i'll be after this summer. not in colorado hopefully. i need to start a new life. i need to start my life. thanks for listening

oh lard its been awhile, about to get my settlement, single, loving life. hows that for an update!

i know this is a shitty way for me to bring in the morning before new year but i think that alot of things can be summed up by some of the things that went on in my second christmas at my mothers house. first off, my mom and i where riding in the car to go get new shoes for me, something i've desperately needed, and i start telling her how my dad ( Read more... )

so right now i'm in self prescribed rehab... aka going up to georgetown staying two weeks then going back to greeley hopefully with my head on a little straighter and more sober. sober? YAY! except i have had something to drink every night down here and two of those nights were in no way shape or form under control but its all good. at least i ( Read more... )

the long awaited chapter 2.

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Whatever you do in life do it with your full spirit and effort. Even the simplest of tasks should be payed close attention to. I'm reading a book right now called 'the way of the peacefull warrior'. Alot of zen and buddhist philosophy its triggering thought patterns that i figured had been either smoked or drank out of my mind, but apparently i ( Read more... )

So lets see what all has been going on for the quick update. i am on the other side of two surgeries to repair my leg. yes. soon i'll be able to conquer the earth.... or at least walking. lets start with that walking thing ( Read more... )

today i found out i will have to undergo major surgery on my left leg within the week. i'm very disapointed and upset. wish me luck, i'll need it.

in florida, eat your heart out! suckaz!