Comments | jiremi: the dream was interesting though. it was a block puzzle that i had to reset by waking up.

jiremi

the dream was interesting though. it was a block puzzle that i had to reset by waking up.

Feb 24, 2011 22:52

so before entering DREAM FESTIVAL yesterday morning, i realized that i'm still miserable. but I thought long and hard about it and figured out.. I have no idea why I feel this way. I mean there were some obvious things that I figured out, but if I were to bring them up I think I'd only make things worse; in the situation, and how I feel. I really ( Read more... )

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pandaman_dan February 25 2011, 14:53:32 UTC

Who the fuck hates Lee he's one of my favorite people.

jiremi February 26 2011, 02:29:57 UTC

No one does, but I think they do. Which is the problem, lol.

pandaman_dan February 26 2011, 02:32:26 UTC

Well, I'd go with the other people's advice if you can. That doesn't seem like the kind of problem your pals can just talk away. Either way feel better man.

jiremi February 26 2011, 02:45:34 UTC

I'll try, thanks :)

1strangepirate February 25 2011, 16:06:55 UTC

Dunno if I'm prying here but are you in/have you considered therapy? It's helped with a lot of my depression and social anxiety.

Don't think of shitty feelings and fear of interaction/people as set in stone or an inseparable part of you. You're a cool dude, Lee. Over time you can deal with stuff and get happy. Don't ever tell yourself that you can't.

jiremi February 26 2011, 02:28:45 UTC

I've considered it.

I'm not afraid of interaction, or people. It's just that I have a lot of negative back burner thoughts. And I end up doing things that just.. aren't really me. I don't have any specific examples, but I find myself doing it a lot.

I know that I can become happy over time, that I can take care of this. I'm just afraid of changing myself too much. I don't wanna stop being 'me'. Makes it complicated, lol.

1strangepirate February 26 2011, 02:58:17 UTC

Just think of it as changing the things that hold you back so you can really come into yourself and be happy. Don't think of pain and negativity as part of yourself, I guess? I mean they're there for everyone but when they override the good things in life it's time to do something before it gets worse :c

You deserve to be happy, man.

scrotumnose February 26 2011, 02:00:39 UTC

i agree with strucci on this ( ... )

jiremi February 26 2011, 02:44:42 UTC

I agree with you there, hahaha! But it does help. I'll probably end up second guessing your intentions down the road but right now it's comforting. I don't know what I'm looking for, however ( ... )

scrotumnose February 26 2011, 17:51:42 UTC

yeah, i think talking in person is always at least 200% harder online, it's got 'real' consequences if something goes awry! but that's kind of the burden you NEED to overcome if you want to achieve peace with yourself and your perception of the 'self'. regarding the therapy, it's possible that the money and desire to make the most out of the precious, expensive time you have will make opening up that much easier, but yeah, the bottom line is that these are feelings that need to be vented in person, to another person. it makes me wish i was still in chicago! what a waste, i would have dragged you out all the damn time if i knew how close you were! but que sera, no use in lamenting over unchangeable things ( ... )

tehdan February 26 2011, 13:53:11 UTC

man up kid