Has it ever been a while...2 whole years since I've updated this thing...longer for most other people that used to/still do have journals floating around in cyberspace. I've been feeling like I need to post lately; like I have something to write again after the past few years. The truth is that I probably should have written many many things down ( Read more... )

Looking back at my journal, its amazing how often I posted things on Thursdays. Thursday is an important day for me I guess. My riding lesson was on Thursday for the longest time. Thursday will be the day of my wedding. I think it may be my favorite day of the week. Its the anticipation of it. Friday is always just a few hours away on Thursday. You ( Read more... )

I have so much to say, and I can't stop thinking about how easy things used to be. Writing in this journal...not knowing whether or not I really wanted to acknowledge that people read it. I used to be so excited to read other people's journals...now my friends page is blank. An empty page because none of us post anymore. Secretly I have to wonder ( Read more... )

I guess everyone's job is like that. There is life and then there is work. The odd thing about teaching is that the line of separation is so flexible it bends and molds and sometimes disappears altogether. Sometimes I feel like things would be easier if I lived in my classroom. I have a sink, theres a bathroom across the hall, a refrigerator down ( Read more... )

Have you ever felt totally stupid...like nothing you do is right or up to snuff. My boyfriend makes me feel stupid in a lame attempt to soothe his hurt ego because the district that didn't want him hired me and is paying me $39,000 for my first year teaching. He still doesn't have a job. I look at people's myspace pages, a way to catch up with them ( Read more... )

On the one hand, we started seriously looking for apartments about two weeks ago. That isn't very long, especially since we sign the lease on Thursday (4 days...eek!). All in all it was a fairly quick process once we got down to business. I thought it would also be fun. We had almost a full month to look around and see what was available and make ( Read more... )

Day after day I'm more confused ( Read more... )

I reread my entry last week and realized just how unmotivated I am now in comparison. Yesterday I had a to do list, and the majority of its items still exist just as they did yesterday morning. I watched a movie last night and thought a lot about putting my laundry away. But I'll be back here Saturday sometime so whats the point. I'll do it then. I ( Read more... )

So first of all I would like to say that I got almost EVERYTHING on my to do list for today. Thats a big "to do" if you ask me (haha...ok bad pun). Typing a lesson plan at 11 at night is something I thought I was done with at the end of student teaching, but I guess in teaching you're never really done with anything. Theres always more of ( Read more... )

I don't know what to say. Life sucks, in the best possible way. I cried and laughed today at the same time while sitting in my car, in the dark, at the barn by myself, looking at a tree and listening to a song. For some reason trees had an extra special influence on me today. The buds against the sunset were just perfect. Leaves being born, life ( Read more... )