Why can’t anything go smoothly for me? I’m so glad it’s Friday. Dad was supposed to bring his truck over Sunday so we could move the rest of my stuff. However, now he works Sunday. So, I have to rely on Brandy to help when she can & may have to take a day off work next week so I can use my dad. (He works 4-12) It’s so frustrating. I just want to ( Read more... )

I realized this past week that everyone I know either has a hearing problem or just does not speak the same language as me. When I tell my loved ones that I want time to work on ME, time to make my life better, get my finances in order …etc…, I mean just that. By saying that, do I sound like I’m saying “PLEASE, FIX ME UP WITH ANY SINGLE MAN YOU ( Read more... )

As if I haven’t been stressed enough the last few weeks, the powers that be thought it would be amusing for me to run into PJ and his girlfriend yesterday. Yes folks, I finally have a face to put with the crack whore’s name. Oh my god. What an ugly face. LOL! I may not be all that, but what the hell he saw in her, I will never know. I don’t know if ( Read more... )

I moved to mom’s yesterday. Well, I moved some of my stuff to mom’s. I still have a ton of stuff to get out of the apartment, then I need to really clean. It’s just so overwhelming. Paul helped me move & after getting everything to mom’s, we plopped down on the bed and fell asleep for 3 hours! I’m hurting today!

I have see Paul a lot. It’s nice ( Read more... )

I have seen a side of Paul this week that I knew existed but I just couldn’t find. He hides his feelings & it not a very emotional person. Amazingly, since we broke up he has shown that side of him. I don’t think he knew how to deal with a serious relationship. I think I was his first serious girlfriend. So he has been stopping up for stuff & we ( Read more... )

Two years ago, on the 4th of July weekend, PJ & I split up. This year, 4th of July weekend, Paul & I split up. Yes, for good. Ironic, huh?

So I’m now on my own again. It was a good move because we really weren’t a good match. He has a good heart, though and I feel bad about the whole thing. I do miss him & I guess I will for a while. He was bad ( Read more... )

I got a call this weekend from PJ’s sister, Cheryl. She was so happy to talk to me and so I ended up going over to visit. She only lives 3 blocks away, so like she says, I have no excuse not to! I feel sort of bad for losing touch with them over the months & thru all this drama, but let’s face it…hanging out with the ex’s family is strange. It was ( Read more... )

Yesterday I went to Kevin & Darlene's new apartment for dinner. Their apartement was actually really nice & spacious. Since Kevin had just seen my sister-in-law, the taboo topic of PJ actually came up. We don't usually talk about him or even mention anything about my marriage. I'm glad we did, though. I know that I made a lot of mistakes in my ( Read more... )

I've decided that the root to all of my problems lies in the fact that I am a human door mat. Yes folks, I am a door mat for anyone & everyone who comes along. I am too naive & trusting. I like people too much. Once I get to know someone, I care about him/her and there is my problem. Not that I shouldn't care, but I need to worry about myself first ( Read more... )

Is it bad when the sign outside the local nuisance bar reads "Happy Birthday Jenny!!"????? ;) LOL ( Read more... )