I can't believe I will be 32 tomorrow. It seems like yesterday I was 23, graduating from college and getting married. That was 9 years ago. God. Who knew I'd be divorced & stuck at ProTech?!  LOL!

Every year my mom throws us b-day dinner parties. Mine was this past Sunday since it was the only day my family could get together. I know it is ( Read more... )

A few weeks ago I went with Brianna's mom to her child support hearing. I went for 2 reasons.

1. I hoped to see PJ hauled off to jail for not paying

2. I knew I would have the chance to confront my husband, whom I have only seen twice in 2 years.

Well, he was there & I went right over and sat down next to him. I had the chance to say so much. ( Read more... )

I've pretty much had it with everything lately. I can't seem to win. Everytime I get my life semi-normal, something comes along and screws me up. I'm ready to jump in front of the next bus I see! Oh well.....

The weekend was long & I didn't really get to enjoy it much. I suppose my illness is what's really bringing me down. When I feel better ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm at such strange place in my life. I knew who I was once....then when I was seperated from PJ I lost myself for a while. Now that I am feeling like Jen again & I want to be productive in my life, I am finding it's very hard to climb your way back out of the hole! I'm getting there but it's hard. I guess the financial devastation is ( Read more... )

Just a few words from George Strait .....should describe my overall mood today! Hope yours is better!

He was sitting there beside me
Throwin' doubles down
When he ordered up his third one
He looked around
Than he looked at me
Said I do believe
I'll have one more
He said I hate this bar
And I hate to drink
But on second thought
Tonight I think
I hate ( Read more... )

I haven't felt much like updating...I guess because I have done nothing but SLEEP for the past few weeks! After nagging my doctor and going for a CT Scan, I found out I have a cyst on my kidney. It seems like this is the cause for SO many problems I've been having. The back pain (obvious), fatigue, colds (lowered immune system), headaches (high ( Read more... )

Wow, I can't believe it's May already. Well, the mother/daughter dance is well under way! Brianna and I have had 3 classes and have 3 more to go. Then our recital is on June 4. God, what a time that is. I'm so out of shape & the hour and 1/2 of dancing, push ups & sweating just about kills me. It's worth it, though. The only real problem I've ( Read more... )

Growing up on Cavitt Road was fun. All of the kids played together & all of our moms watched us. Games of cops & robbers lasted days & spanned 10 yards at a time! So last night at Jackie's funeral, it was really surreal to run into everyone after all this time. Some of us still live there, some have moved on, some still have parents there....we are ( Read more... )

My last entry mentioned my neighborhood growing up...ironic that this one does too.. Over the weekend the girl who grew up across the street from me died. She was only 4 years older.  She was on a motorcycle w/her daughter. The girl is ok, but Jackie isn't. The Green family has always been so wonderful. They are very friendly, generous friends who ( Read more... )

The other day on my lunch break, I went to my mom's. It was such a nice day that I took a little walk around the block. Now, I grew up in this neighborhood. I drive by the houses and areas I used to play at every day. But somehow I noticed everything seemed so different on foot. The smells and the sights..the cracks in the road...all seemed to just ( Read more... )