Well....

[jmh1204]

Things have changed and i dont know what to do anymore. I thought it would be ok and i would be there for support. I tryed to hold her but it didnt work. I either made her to hot and i got her some cold water and a wet rag to cool her down. Then she was cold and i was tryin to hold her but she insisted that i didnt. I dont know how to act. I only

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[emostarr]

heh. i read your comment in sandra's journal.
we went throigh basically everything you could imagine.
if you ever wanna know more about her, look me up.
i have lots of good stories.

[jmh1204]

I think that i could figure out sandra. I mean she does the samethings over and of again just to get attention. I mean come on. It gets old when u are going to start crying or having a tantrum cause something little happened or u dont get ur way. When i hear about ur relationship with her. Everyone thought it was u that was the problem. Now im wondering did she do the same to u and if so i can see why u would do the stuff u did.

[emostarr]

at least that's all you had to deal with.
the last 2 months of my spring semester at clarion included..
numerous suicide threats, lots of hospital trips, driving to erie in the middle of the night, crying, phone calls until 4 or 5am.. and so much more.
she threatened to kill herself. i would stay on the phone until 4 or 4 balwing my eyes out trying to convince her not to. i was so scared the one night, i drove from clarion to erie in the middle of the night.. only to leave in the morning to make it back for my second class.
she kept a total of how many cuts she had. at one point, the number was over 100. i begged her to get help. i loved her with all my heart, but i didn't know how to help her.
i wish she'd go back to school at gannon. i'd feel so much better if Natalie and Colin were gonna be around.

but yanno, i'm the bad guy.

[jmh1204]

I dont think that u are the bad guy. I think she just need attention and if she doesnt get it then its on u. I cant stand people who are two faced. She is nice to u up front but behind ur back she talks alot of shit she cant back up. Like she is all cussin meagon out and when she came over to the apt she wouldnt get out of the car cause meagon would pop her.