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[jncoskid420]

i just got back from florida yesterday. what fun. why is it that five or six girls still cant fill the void. i dont get it. dont get me wrong, its great, but im missing something. i dont ever feel right. it makes me wonder a few things but then i hit the delete button. the only problem is that its like pop-ups on a computer. it keeps comming back

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My Only and First Love

[squeek_squeeky]

Worth fighting for! Jody I love you so much. You are the most wonderful person I have ever met. Words mean nothing, I guess you can be right about that. I never wanted you to be more then you are. You can't be more then you are because you are everything, well to me you are everything. I cannot describe how I feel for you in less then 1,000,000 words. I gave up it was time to give it up, I refused to keep hurting you I felt that you should get on with your life and leave me behind, I could not make you happy. So many people though they could do better and I was undeserving and I began to believe it. We are so different, I watched us grow apart.... the day you poped yourself in the face with the bow I really saw it. You stopped looking at me like you use to..... It did not feel like we were in love anymore... I was in love and so were you but we were not together in love... or thats how I felt Why do you think so low of yourself, you are perfect. Jody Thomas Brookshire.... why do you haunt me... I cannot get you out of my mind or my

Re: My Only and First Love

[jncoskid420]

well, i didnt "go back" to julie, it just came up and we dated for a bit but that was it. if i am everything why does it add up to nothing? if i am perfect why do i have so many flaws? you were the one that i changed for. thats what got julie pissed off at me is the fact that i wouldnt change. i dont care though. i said what was on my mind, she took it to her advantage and turned my words on me and now i dont call her. she might call me but i dont care. ive got as many girls as i want but im empty, i get whatever whenever, but i have nothing. so tell me, how does what you said line up? that made me worse. i dont even know who wrote what, who said what to who, all i know is my life fell apart and i went off the deep end, so now i live with it. thats enough for now. w/b

Re: My Only and First Love

[squeek_squeeky]

I went to Mulberry Park yesterday for breakfast, I have been there so many times with so many friends but as I walked towards the playground area all I could think of was you. I thought about how we met and the different things we have done together, and what we have gone through. I though about are real first date, the one in February, Prom, when I messed up your shoulder on your birthday, bowling, are first kiss.. my first real one. I can't even take a bath without missing you. No matter who I am with or who I care for you are always the one

[squeek_squeeky]

You did not write back and I know you read it..... so this means no more writting

[jncoskid420]

that does not mean no more writing. why the assumption. simple writing back and forth cant hurt much. but i ran out of time. why do i see myself as nothing? hmmm, when i look in the mirror that is what i see and feel about myself. that is what i have been shown by too many people, even some of my closest friends. the people that start to talk to me and im nice to them just because and they dont even know me. all the time thats what i get. the flaws you love, you left. the flaws you love, you loved to point out. you didnt ask me to change, but i wanted you happy. a lot of good that did me. i am not saying our time was wasted, but now the good memories are clouded by the absense of you and the things that happened, the man i couldnt be, because if i could have been, you'd be here now. people ask me about you every day, people i know, people i dont know. and all i can do is look away because i dont want to respond and have to think about it. yeah, we did have some good times didnt we, the arcade at the bowling alley, buffalos, prom at