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[jncoskid420]

well, today was alright. wow, kendel gave me this picture of herself and its amazing. oh well, doubt that. doesnt matter anyway. i get to make up more of my work, thats good. i get to go to work again tonight. fun fun. "are you stalking me, because that would be super" if only, if only. i want to go to the races this friday but i cant. go to nopi

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Jody,

[squeek_squeeky]

You never called me back or asked me to stay.... Not really even why I was doing it, just let me repeat I can't handle this any longer. Why do you matter so much to me? Why after so much time do I continue to hate Sam, Julie or any other girl that is near you.... I left I know that!!!! You keep repeating the same thing to me over and over like I don't know this already. I feel like an idoit running to my computer everyday after school just to see if you have replyed.... it is about as pathetic as my phone run, to see if you are calling... I have been chasing that flipping phone since 7th grade, and in almost 4 months it has not been you. I go to Kroger to pick up tea after work, and to go to the ATM and to get gas quite a bit and I debate running into stupid wing world and looking for you.... Ha I am a pathetic fool, I left becuase it is redculious to continue it any longer, and I sit here and wonder to myself how stupid could I have been to let you go. Oh well I promised I would never hurt you again and so I wont, I dont even think

Re: Jody,

[jncoskid420]

hows about we stop this back and forth you did i did you said i said. i never thought we would end up like this. i know everything i have said has been true. do i want to see you. yes, i do. i tell justin and chris and everyone else the exact opposite of that, but i do. do i secretly sit in my mind whenever i see you in the parking lot and want you to come in, yes, but i dont admit it to anyone else. will i let you hurt me again, well, you werent supposed to the last time, so i dont think so. do i wish i could without looking like a jackass, pushover, and a desperate person to others, yes. but its not desperation. its having an angel and her leaving because you are the devil. what was i to say? would words have even mattered? i dont think so. they never did with you. actions are the only thing that did, and sometimes that didnt even work. do i want to see you? yes. will i ask for or wait for it? no. i dont expect it. if it happens it happens, but it wont be the same. i cant look at you with the same eyes. those eyes have disappeared.