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[jncoskid420]

today in weight training, we played football again. it sucked too because we couldnt play tackle. two hand touch sucks. coach made a comment that i should have been a quarterback! hah, hes so funny. he didnt sound like he was being a smart ass or joking, but i laughed anyway. how different would things be for me if i had played football? i dont

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Jncos

[squeek_squeeky]

I guess I will leave you alone it seems thats what you want. I am sorry that I am a snow covered memory and nothing else but that.. after all this time I cannot let go but I guess you leave me no choice... I wish I had fought but it is to late now, I lay down my weapon and I will let you heal. I never cared about the mistakes we made.. I was just a bitter. I wanted "Us" to work.... I guess I cannot control are fate. It is my fault for not fighting for what I wanted the most and then giveing up so easily..... I see now that I have waisted so much time... I will let you go now. Words always ment more.. what you said touched me deeper then anything we went through... I just needed to hear them. The day I went to look for you I needed to tell you that I loved you and it would be ok, you were not to be found so I never got the chance and shortly after that I ended "Us" I am sorry that I destroyed everything. I love you regardless if you believe me or not, and I will always be yours.

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[jncoskid420]

okay, well, i didnt say i wanted you to leave me alone. i think that is actually the opposite of what i said. you could have found me, you could have found me the next day. i dont care though. the past is the past. the present is now and it leads to the future, and that is what i need to worry about. fighting is not hard either. its amazing the way you perceive things. you never worried about our mistakes and you wouldnt talk to me when i wanted you to which was every time i saw you, but you would talk to justin. you would talk to many people, maybe not about everything, but more than me, and you say i didnt talk to you... i tried the words thing. i tried comming to see you every chance i got and do whatever i could. i got all the way over to your house to be told to turn around. a few people told me to leave you then. i didnt. i didnt listen to myself when my instincts told me to leave you, that something bad was happening. i saw the bullets coming, straight toward you, but i jumped in front of them and took them for you. i dont want

Re: Jncos

[squeek_squeeky]

It sounded as such.. I know you live with your mom(from the other reply)I don't know why I talked to Justin... there is no Us.. there will always be an us just a broken one.... That situation happened once and I was sorry about that... I had no way to get a hold of you and tell you not to come after you left I was very sorry about that.