Am I done?

Or do I still have more to do?

The second doesn't weight quite a much anymore.

Is lost.

I don't know how much more waiting I can take.

Day becomes night, night becomes day, I wake up do nothing, I sleep and wake up to do nothing more. I feel like I am this close from the next logical step.

You know sometimes I think that I must be insane, that there is no way one person can get so frustrated, can feel so angry, can want such hate. I try to accept, I try to given those a chance, a chance to play by the rules and not screw me over. I try not to hold hate, hold anger, and given those a chance to do what they are suppose to do. But in ( Read more... )

I only sleep because I am tired. I no longer look forward to it. I feel disappointed with my days, I don't deserve sleep until I've accomplished my day.

2008 has come to past. It's been some kind of year, eventful and uneventful. Most of the eventful things to happen in 2008 came pretty late in the year, well really at the end of it. First one to graduate from college in my family, met my little niece, obtained my driver's license, getting freelance work for 3d modeling. It's been a great way for ( Read more... )

It's been so long since I've been to one, I am pretty sure I was a kid the last time I went to such an event. But you know what? It's pretty much the same like it's always been except this one's a bit more low key ( Read more... )

I am fake. I don't have to feel it anymore. I just am.

That is all.

It's really weird this year, well maybe not weird but strange ( Read more... )

I just lost about 2 Terabyte worth of data. All my work files, images, movies, music, just all around stuff! I can't fucking believe this! I can't even express anger, it really feels like someone just died, I feel so very depressed now. I don't want to do anything anymore. Just lay on the ground and cry myself to death. That's over 3 years worth of ( Read more... )

So I am done. Not what?