Well, it's been a long time since I last posted. Why is it that whenever our lives aren't going well, we post on here? There's been so much going on that I don't know where to begin. Of course, it involves a man. WE've been broken up now for 3 months after being together for 8. He wanted to be free and "sew his wild oats" and so I gave him ( Read more... )

I know that it has been a long time since my last post, about 2 years and I'm posting now because my bf, Tim is reading my past entries and wow I was very depressed back in 2005-2007. Right now things are going so well for me. Wait..well, I'm not working. I've been unemployed since Nov 2008 and receiving unemployment benefits but everything else ( Read more... )

Ok, I've been feeling sad/meloncholy laterly. I've been thinking about how alone I feel. I go to work from 6:30am - 4pm, go home, take a nap, wake up, watch TV, go to sleep only to have it all start all over again. There's gotta be something better than this. I mean, I'm happy with life in general but that's just me. I seem to always be in a ( Read more... )

It was an amazing feeling being one of the over 70 Gay Men's Chorus of San Diego (GMCSD) members who walked out onto the field at Petco Park at today's San Diego Padres game against Atlanta Braves to sing the national anthem. It was one of my proudest performing moments next to singing at the March on Washington in 1993 with the San Francisco Gay ( Read more... )

The dream: While taking a nap today, in my dreamstate, I was taken to a dark time. A time of deception and hurt. I was dreaming about last year (March-April 06) when my boyfriend at the time had started cheating on me after we had moved from California to Denver, CO. He would use his drinking to escape from whatever it was he was going through ( Read more... )

I'm very moody lately. Here I am sitting in bed writing in LJ while most of my friends are drinking, partying at the typical Friday hangout. Frankly, I'm just not in the mood. I am tired of going out just to drink, pass out flyers for an upcoming pool party encouraging more drinking, socializing until I end up driving my roommate home as he ( Read more... )

This is day 2 of my new lifestyle/diet....I've starting schedule my days to include waking up at 5:30am to shower and start meditating again, go to work, hit the gym, shower, meditate, eat before 7pm and in bed by 9:30pm-10pm. I'm also eating more fiber, more grain, more protein, more organic food cutting out red meat, fried foods and some sugar ( ( Read more... )

WOW, has it really been 4 months since I last posted? Reading a friend's blog tonight made me re-read all my entries and boy I have gone through so much in the last 3 years. Well, a bit of recap...My job is going well, the chorus is great (I am now co-producing our next concert July 28 & 29 - www.gmcsd.com). Everything in my life seems to be ( Read more... )

Yes, it was indeed been a very very VERY long time since my last post. I supposed I am posting because 1) my 2 year old ibook just crashed, I am in the process of replacing my hard drive and I can't get into iweb to post to my new website through my .mac account 2) I keep having these thoughts in my head and I want to write them down somewhere. ( Read more... )

It's been awhile since I've posted, but thought I'd just do a quick update. I've started working about 3 weeks ago now as a Convention Service Manager for a large hotel here in San Diego. It's cool, but I will be super busy as I am responsible for working with large groups. To make the new job more stressful, a week after I started, I developed ( Read more... )