Been a while....

[joenickfo]

So, It's been a couple months since I have updated this thing, so this could take a while. Still in the house, still dealing with the same bullshit elsewhere. Things with the girl are still fucked, still working the same damn job, still tired, depressed, and wishing things were different. The girl is home for the summer, so that is good, but also

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[joshy0302]

Dibs on ass when you go gay. I called it first. You're not alone duder, and you never will be if I have anything to say about it. Lets get drunk and you'll feel worlds better ;P
love
Joshy

my thoughts on said entry

[perfectlibra_83]

Hey JN it's Amanda...if you couldn't tell from the picture :-). Anyway, I am much like you in terms of how I view relationships. I constantly worry about needless shit and wonder how I fucked up. I worry about what I said, what I did, or what I should have said or done. It's insane and, in the end, only gets you going around in circles. I know you don't know the whole story with what happened between James and I, and I won't go into it here because it's long...but suffice to say it was rough..very rough. It still is, and it's been 5 months since I even spoke to him. I hear about how happy he seems to be with his girlfriend, and it kills a part of me...for a little while. And then I remember that life isn't so bad...things could be a lot worse. Clearly that's a saying that is much easier to hear than it is to adopt, but trust me, things will get better. I don't know Sarah or you (particularly you) as well as I would like to, but I do believe that she will eventually come around and see what she's putting on hold. If not,