i pray every day that hopefully something new will come my way
so i stay and plan my great escape so i can get away
ill sever all of my ties to everything that i know
not a soul that breathes will ahve an idea of where ill go
im leaving this place
be it here and now
or maybe just later 
sometime in teh future
i see life thru a fisheye lens distorted and ( Read more... )

so ive had a lot of anger as of late, and im not sure how i should vent it... a good friend tells me that in the last 6 months ive become increasingly short with people... or maybe its that im sick of people in general... are there any dependable people left in this world? are there any decent people left? i wonder to myself, how many people love ( Read more... )

reliable:

Adjective
1. Capable of being relied on; dependable: a reliable assistant; a reliable car. 2. Yielding the same or compatible results in different clinical experiments or statistical trials.
Other forms
re·li'a·bil'i·ty or re·li'a·ble·ness n.re·li'a·bly adv.
Synonyms
reliable, dependable, responsible, trustworthy, trusty
These adjectives mean ( Read more... )

so today i didnt do too much... hung out and played football, watched a lil tv, took a nap and went to work... work was fun... always meeting new people there, some more exciting than others tho... i dont know what to think of my feelings as of late... soemthing tells me, that like the teachings of the force, my feelings betray me...but at teh same ( Read more... )

i have a lot on my mind that i dont know how to express... lots of feelings, emotions and other things... things from happiness to anger, lust to greed... who knows what to think anymore.. im just mentally exhausted lately... grr ( Read more... )

its hard to explain, but i dont get it anyways... i dont know what i should do... 
shit flying at me from a million different ways... i dont know what i should do...
im tearing my hair out handfulls at a time... i dont know what i should do....
im killing the inner innocence inside... ive decided thats what ill do

choices, its the choices that we make that carry us home
in the end youre only responsible for your own
maybe one day someone else will believe
who knows soon maybe someone else will see
its a tragedy
a pitiful blasphemy
but it corresponds with everything im told
thoughts, thoughts carried out on a whim and not on a limb
its the same thoughts that cripple ( Read more... )

so theres a whole shit load of stuff going on lately... it seems i am running into a few old friends, some much more welcome than others...it is nice to see that people are doing well, and its even nicer to spend some time with someone you cared much about before falling out of touch. all in all, things are so crazy right now... it also seems that ( Read more... )

first entry in a long time... wow! anyone miss me? prolly not.. hahah ( Read more... )

is anyone on this damn thing anymore?