Hey...i stopped writing in this journal cuz its depressing and blah. Me and steen are AMAZING so dont be misled by the lack of good entries after the bad ones. I made a new journal but dont feel like posting it yet so i will eventually. maybe ill write in this one again sometime who knows ( Read more... )

I am truly dead i wish she would bring me back to life. but do i deserve it?

Well i must say this weekend was alot better than previous days have been. I had good mexican food TWICE which is a rare occasion in these parts. My dad picked me up from school thursday and brought ben and i to three amigos and then back to cathys. Friday i walked to the high school and hung out with steen while she got ready for a sweet 16. ( Read more... )

Ugh soo much drama this week ( Read more... )

midterms this week...and snow that doesnt close school ( Read more... )

I miss my lover

I love the sound of snow falling. And cars driving on snow. Such an orgasmic silence. Such smoothness makes a pleasent sound. The friction of a dry road and dry tires makes a discusting whine. fuck friction

Well i sure feel like shit. I did heroin. Its no big deal....im careful, i see what its done to others. i know that it doesnt matter about the amount its the principle the stigma, but o well. But it is a big deal. In fact its a REALLY big deal. Steen is pretty hurt. Im pretty hurt that i hurt her...and myself, but i just dont know what to do. I ( Read more... )

heklllo since joe doesnt update his journal ever i have decided to do that for him and tell you about our valentines day ( Read more... )

So, havent written in awhile. Im now 19 which doesnt really mean shit to me. i dont really wanna smoke anymore so even though they changed the law it doesnt matter to me. i was more sick than i ever have been this weekend. and yes, i was sick on my birthday :/ now im back at school and still kinda sick. didnt go to any classes, and just kinda ( Read more... )