apparently i'm the only one in existence not running out to see the batman movie. I mean, im sure its great and all....i can just wait a couple years. I just want to spend the rest of my last friday night before i turn 21 sitting around, drinking tea reading trash and listening to Fiona apple, because the next few ones will be a completly different ( Read more... )

i think the 20s are the decade of moving. I'm so tired of packing and moving, packing and moving its like 3 times in 3 months?
My stomach is so not happy, i'm too stressed.
I'm much happier today, and learning how to get used to my new life, my new way of thinking and just looking forward to the next couple months. I realised that as upset as i still ( Read more... )

i will stay productive.
i will be positive. i will only think of positive things not ask questions and not call him until i'm ready.
i will learn and grow from this. i will work hard and be happy.
love is worth the pain

 how do the normal deal with life?
fighting is cliche..and loud
whiskey is a sign of a problem
running is too strange and healthy
masterbation is a sin (is it?)
smoking ruins running
drawing is so over
music is hiding from reality
pills?
complaining is annoying.
one day i will be happy and ( Read more... )

living is easy with eyes closed, and ive been a bit too observant lately ( Read more... )

 i'm looking for the perfect gay best friend ( Read more... )

i finally did it.
we finally broke up. i have to move out of my new apartment.
leave my cat, cut off a reliable sex source, cuddling and every other coupl-y thing.
all to give up fighting, move downtown, grow on my own and try it out for a month.
im kinda freaked out at the moment.

i think i'd like to start an addiction. i give up on everything though. there is no hope ( Read more... )

ive turned my walk in closet into rockstar shrine for all the band posters and art work i'm not willing to give up even though i'm now an adult with sophisticated taste. its my new favorite room. i think i'll just live in here with my shoes and dresses. put in a couch and a tv, maybe a hot tub. we'll see.
don't bother me i'm in my closet.

i hate today. 
and i dont have a friend to say fuck it and drink with me anymore

on the bright side  i can catch the end of Cabin Fever...