So I am doing alright, I have some stuff that is kinda in the back of my mind and i don't know if its because of me or my friend John but its there. I don't like it at all even more I don't like the thought if it is true. I am a good person and don't deserve bad things and I think I have good friends and my GF has good friends too. I shouldn't ( Read more... )

Just wanted to do a brief updat eto let everyone know I am still alive. Just busy with a new job and getting ready for faire I have a couple tents to set up in a couple weeks so off to sleep and then to work night everyone

Not feeling to much of anything right now i feel foolish and stupid ashamed and embarassed nothing like how I wanna feel. Life is going not going very well but going I have family around but at the moment thats it and sometimes it doesn't feel like enough. I mean I have family friends and a girlfriend to love and yet somehow I find theres a piece ( Read more... )

So its been quite a while since I updated my weblog and I apologize I havent been feeling very well. So I called in to work sick today and my boss wants a letter from my doctor, great right so i dont know what I am going to do about it anyhow I am just trying to get through everything I am getting more and more ILL over this whole thing its ( Read more... )

I hope everyone is doing well, I am hanging in there. I have a ren faire workshop for St. George tomorrow its kinda yayish, I am actually considering dropping out or talking to Stacy about going back to the BBF for a while. I mean I love fair I love the BBF and St. George I just don't know what I want, plus it seems like every other year almost ( Read more... )

I got bored and unfortunatly I dont have much to say at the moment I have a workshop for faire on sunday, for the first time its only kinda yay. I feel different somehow like I might not belong and it doesn't bother me. That past year or two I have really stressed fitting in with everyone and being liked by everyone. Today I look back and ( Read more... )

So I just started this live journal thingy, cause of liz. . . . . . . . AHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh peer pressure, lol. I thought it would be cool cause now I can do some cool quizes only the LJ people can do so yeah thats all for now maybe I will say something later today.