[I'm not John Stevens, I watch American Idol and cry over his wonderfullness just like all of you so don't freak out. I'm just a fan and this is just roleplay. Thank you!]

What can I say? I guess my time was up. I thought it was going to be last week but I was blessed to stay in it another week, and I enjoyed my last week in the competetion ( Read more... )

I haven't updated for a while. I guess I really don't know what to say exactly. In two weeks, so many things have changed. My mom wants to limit my internet time for reasons she thinks I don't know. She doesn't want me to see what they've been saying about me, what I can see in the judges faces each time another person that isn't me, is voted off ( Read more... )

I felt like we all, as a whole, did great last night ( Read more... )

Camile left the house this morning. This doesn't get any easier, watching your friends go through something you fear more than just about anything right now and at the same time, having to say good-bye to them. We miss you like crazy already, I'd like to think your ghettoness rubbed off on me some but how ghetto can someone like me be. I already ( Read more... )

And here come the nerves again. I guess they were there last night, but they weren't as noticeable ( Read more... )

I should probably be asleep, but I can't ( Read more... )

I'm really not sure what to say right now. I think it was a bad idea to chose to venture online and see what people had to say about my preformance after last night, but I can't wipe clear what I've seen. In polls asking who should be voted off next, my name seems to be highlighted in more than one, and now I'm just anxious for tonight to be done ( Read more... )

I never have time to update after the results show, it seems like as soon as it's over we're back into work again the next day, even harder than we were before ( Read more... )

I'm still embarrassed about yesterday. I was only too thankful that most of the audience, from what I've heard, didn't realize I forgot a section of the song's words. I was panicking up there, as I said. Those lights shining down on you when you realize you've messed up is enough to stop anyone's mind from functioning but I tried to cover it ( Read more... )