Im still alive. still looking for the key
http://youtu.be/PfCShekCOwU

I have never felt such weakness. I have never felt such a lack of self control.

I need to get out of here, this city, this place. My search was for Satan. What I found is lonely and sad. it is hopeless. My new addiction is too powerful, it gives me what I need, dark paranoia, anxiety depression to soothe my death spirit. I cant stop I have found company with ghosts.

solitude.

someone cook some food for me I'm starving. I dont wanna eat kraft dinner again!

So you livejournal ppl know what I look like


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Even though I didnt create this problem, it feels like I may have brought it on. Too much meditation on negative, qliphotic elements. Am I really working towards my own destruction and destruction of everything around me? Those childish fantasies in my teenage years mature into nightmarish realities. I got exactly what I wanted, but at what price? ( Read more... )

So I made a philly cheese steak sandwich earlier and it was great! I added some onions, green peppers and mushrooms. I used cheese whiz for the cheese, I never tried this provolone cheese yet. The Cheese whiz was good on it, but I think next time I am just going to grate some real cheddar onto it I think I would like that more (never liked cheeze ( Read more... )

I hate old people who drive too slow! hurry up and get out of mah way!

I hate it when I am walking down the street in the evening and there is a girl walking ahead of me in the same direction. It makes me feel like I stalking them. Maybe they think I will rape them. They should get off of my route and the direction I need to go, and choose another if they are bothered by it. Like fuck off!