no one is ever who they say they are. not in the sense that i'm lying about green being my favorite color. but grey .. red, might those just be to follow someone else? get a small bit of their attention? who knows. not that colors were really my point to begin with .. i'm just finding myself in a lull. but i don't even know if it's justified since ( Read more... )

walliflower (6:55:18 PM): sooooooo ( Read more... )

so i've taken the time to sit, and think, because i drive a lot and that's all that you can do. i'm retarded about a lot of things. take, for example, how i knew my homework assignment for tomorrow since thursday and am finally starting it upon completion of this entry. or, that i almost had myself stuck in a lease paying $300 a month for .. what? ( Read more... )

in the past 18 hours i've become unsure of everything. maybe not everything. but most things. renee's been screwed out of her third living situation for oshkosh next year, but i think i might let her take over my lease with amy. which leaves me ... at home after august, unless other plans go through, in which case i may not be left in the state. i' ( Read more... )

Place all your bets and watch me lose
The life that I got but never used
Dream every night that one will come true
But only bad ones ever do

Won't let it pass me by again
Won't let it pass me by again

My heart beats way too fast
To let regret sit in my lap

i've done these before. i can't remember of they're different at all. regardless, they're still fun. and i still base my life around their results. [haha]

I guess there's just a part of me that likes to bring you down just to keep you around, because the day you realize how amazing you are, you're gonna leave me.

Your Love Type: INFP
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would it help to know that in a weird, twisted way, i know exactly what i'm doing. that if you wanted to hope, it would probably treat you very kindly in the end. i have no definition for "end." end could be three months, six months, one year, three years from now. right now i don't know, but i know that i will. every last bit of me says the same ( Read more... )

school+work+boys+retarded roommates/friends is the equation necessary for a very unhappy me. not unhappy, just confused, frustrated, anxious, overwhelmed ... etc. i'm supposed to read the odyssey for engligh .. by 1:50 this afternoon. my book is about four inches thick and the odyssey takes up a good 1/2-3/4 of an inch. i didn't do well on a ( Read more... )

homework? nooo. better than homework(;


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if it weren't for school, i would be floating on a river of eternal bliss. school is grounding me ... keeping me from going a thousand places all at once. ..i almost wish it wasn't.