Here ends all that I've known for nine months. I know in my heart that it's the best thing; the right thing. It's just ironic that the right thing is usually the hardest thing to accept and deal with. I just don't think, in my heart, that things can stay the same. It's a beautiful theory, and I've wanted it for myself in the past, but I'm finally ( Read more... )

"Who's the one that makes you happy...or maybe, who's the one always on your mind...and who is the reason you're living, oh...who's the reason for your smile...I feel so lonely and I know I'm not the only one...to ever feel this way...I love you so much that...I think I'm going insane..." Tesla-What You Give

Who doesn't like to be ignored? I find it exhilarating. Really. I do. My brain switches to turbo speed and I can't keep anything straight. TRY IT ( Read more... )

this is fun. the end of my bed is my computer chair - the most comfortable computer chair ever. abbey and i bought a tapestry to hang on our ceiling, and a salvador dali poster to decorate these white-washed walls. i have a list 5 miles long of things to bring back from kaukauna tomorrow, all hopefully gathered before 6:30. i'm really not in the ( Read more... )

So. Things have been weird. And it almost feels like they're getting weirder, even though things are getting better. Did that make sense? Kevin and I .. were not okay. For a while. And he told me things that made me want to slap him, just because maybe slapping the idiot out of a person might actually work..? He says he doesn't think he's good ( Read more... )

This morning, I'm venturing on my very first date ever. I'm excited for chocolate milk and pancakes (:

hehehahahaha. i'm living happily through my streak of good fortune. my room is complete, i have the car i've wanted for eight years, my birthday is in t-19 days, and katie comes home in t-28ish days. aaand, i'm working on my longest relationship .. ever? i'm pretty excited about that. and surprised. but yet not. i don't know. (:

Things have been good lately. I miss Kate. She says 'arse' now, and I wish I were cool enough to speak like an English girl. I sneak a 'bloody hell' in every once in a while, but that's as foreign as I go. The room project is coming along nicely; funny how I'm not doing a thing. Dad was pretty confident that he wouldn't be doing much concerning ( Read more... )

I'm finding it very difficult to be sneaky. People need to learn how to not have uncooperative roommates. Yeah. It would make life so much easier.

'Fun' and 'happy' are not longer foreign terms. Go me!

Uhm. I'm excited for next week. And going to England!??!! It could happen (:

I'm sick of hearing nasty things. And I'm starting to get sick of not knowing whether or not to believe them. I hate rumors, but I hate when I can't validate them even more. I have no idea if what these people are saying is true, and I don't know how much of a difference it would make if I knew, except that I would feel incredibly used and betrayed ( Read more... )