Like i said before (i think) January is my time and october is Jodie's time. Saturday is going to be the 1st anniversary of her grandfather's death and to be honest i don't know how she's going to cope. I know how much he meant and i know this is going to be the TOUGHEST test of her resolve. She's alot like me. Self mutilation, drugs and ( Read more... )

Is there anyone who still reads this thing?

I barely recognize the man in the mirror anymore.  I've changed so much but at the same time so much remains the same for me.  It's weird how we grow and develop through the years.  Different things taking different effects on our lives.  I've lost over 9 stones in weight now since i  started at the ( Read more... )

So now i gotta wonder. Does anyone actually look in here anymore? I gotta admit im rarely if ever around online much. I barely even get time to do my emails for Katie, Shea and Casey. Mainly it's just too much work but also it's Jodie being a total computer whore lol. So yeah, it's all her damned fault ( Read more... )

After much deliberation i've decided that if all goes well and all is right and i have the money and the relationship is still good that i will propose to Jodie at the stroke of midnight. Im not sure whether that means i'll have proposed on new years eve or new years day but it doesn't matter, the key thing is the proposal lol ( Read more... )

Well im better now. Saw the doctor and she gave me this Don Perignon stuff. That's not the proper name. I think it's doperidone or something but i stopped puking the day before i left for Northern Ireland so i was pleased with that ( Read more... )

You know i've worked so freaking hard to fix the damage i've done through my own selfish stupidity and ignorance and now here i am again walking an ever decreasing thin line. Im on the verge of being fired, i can FEEL it. i could go into detail, but i can't.(See John's contract section .. paragraph ( Read more... )

Well i did it!! Loved it aswell. Jodies little sister is absoloutly mental but she's amazing. Scary thought: Spending time with her and thinking bout my nieces and nephews has made me start thinking about the future and a family of my own! Eeeep ( Read more... )

So once again i have descended into the mist. Vanishing in the midst of the night, never to be seen again. Or so you thought. I admit i dont have much time for the web but the main reason i've been gone is the lack of a connection ( Read more... )

Sooooo t's been a while huh ( Read more... )

Oh these summer days. Can't help but smile when you wake, open the curtains and see the clear blue sky. Then, you realise you have nowhere to go and the world flies on by as you squirm back under the blankets and snooze through the early afternoon ( Read more... )