eff this journal. dont post. dont read. i changed my lj..

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i dont know what to say. i need help. i hate, no you know what? hate doesnt even begin to desribe it, i fucking LOATH who i fucking am. i hate everything right now. why are people so mean? i dont understand. im not fucking emotionally stable enough to take shit from people all the god damn time. WHAT THE FUCK IS SO GOD DAMN BAD ABOUT ME!!FUCK.
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tonight was okay:
+me and dominika = friends again. =)
+all went downtown cause we couldnt get a ride to mchenry, it was kool. sorta.
+matt was there <3
+supposivly saw george.
+got kicked out of  the movie theather
+matt!
+set the alarm off in the elevator haha it owned
+had effing seizures and people thought we were effing retarded
+seeing matt.
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spent the afternoon watching//following kevin. it owned.i love that boy. that is all.

im not that creepy.  <3

tonight fucking owned. the brigade was effing awesome. all these ( Read more... )

i dont get it anymore. dominkas all fucking pissed over no fucking reason. oh and if shes reading this, yeah i wasnt talking shit about you to ross, he imed me about the bet w/ john and bla bla bla and i was like ooh did you tell dominka that you loved her and i had j ust asked that because well you had said it in the first place anyway. i love you ( Read more... )

me and dominika relized more why john was all pissy the last like month or whatever. we were almost crying on the phone its pathetic but it hurts so bad to see him like this. i wish i could do something. and im so sad to see him like this but i dont think theres anything me/dominika can do.

in other news: its nice out, i <3 it like this, it makes ( Read more... )

hi. today was okay, we were all suppose to go to KOC, but tonight wasnt band night. so we went to the teen center for a little bit then we effed around w/ the drive thru windows at bk and went downtown but it was hella boring. missed the brigade show; couldnt get a ride down to chicago. oh well. so now linzis at my house, and theres nothing to do.
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Happy Birthday Addrin! <3

hey whores, his virginity, $12.

haha i had to add that.

xoxo
*jen.

i <3 you adrian.

i cant take this shit anymore. my moms effing retarded, i sortof miss my dad now. i cant stant it. i need to fucking get out of this house. run  a w a y  w.i.t.h. me
 i miss john so much. hes literally the angel from my nightmare. haha that sounds funny. i havent seen him since saturday

i miss chris alot too
 i miss running off to his house
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