Mike doesnt know about this page. I would like it to stay this way. Anything I say about him or about us, or anything in general, I would like it if you dont talk to him about it. This is the only thing I have that he isnt involed in. I like it that way.

Im losing my mind and I dont know what to do. i will fill everyone in on it later.

 I cant understand how he puts up with me. Im sorry Mike that Im such a bad girlfriend. I love  you. Dont forget that. I want to spend the rest of my life with him. I hope he doesnt change his mind. I dont know what I would do.

So now Im leaving with Nikki and her boyfriend. I have been leaving her since the being of Oct. Im not quit so sure I like it all that much. Its hard living with your bestfriend. I miss living at home. Mom offerd for me to move back in with her but Im not sure if I want though. If I move back in with her all the drama is just going to start all ( Read more... )

I know where I stand now in my home. Or should I say the house I sleep at. Aparently Brian (moms boyfriend) is more important then me. Thats fine Im moving out by the end of the week. I hope. She wont have to put up with me any more. Fuck her. I hope she is happy. I know Im not here, and Im proally not going to be happy where Im moving but atleast ( Read more... )

He hasnt actually asked me yet but we are talking about marrige. I love him. The more and more I keep think about it though, I get freaked out. Im scared. I dont want to get my hopes up and then it not happen. What the hell is wrong with me? The funny thing is I almost broke up with him the first time he said "I love you." What am I going to do ( Read more... )

He isnt coming home untill feb now. 

OK so now right now, I can tell you that I am going to marry Mike. I dont know when, but I am. We have talked about it. His parents dont know, but they keep telling us that we should wait to get married. Which is bullshit. I mean Im not going to run off tomorrow and get married or anything, but maybe in a year or so, we dont know yet. Plus nothing ( Read more... )

I felt like such a loser last night. I realized that Mike wont be coming home untill after our one year anniversary. As soon as that thought hit me I broke down and started crying. I couldnt help it. I was so looking forward to him being here and now he is not going to be. Or atleast I dont think he will be. Maybe the week or two after but still ( Read more... )

"I would die for you
I´ve been dying just to feel you by my side
To know that you´re mine"

Im so fucking lonely. I miss Mike so fucking much. I hate being away from him. Im not going to be able to see him untill the 24th now because he got in trouble and is being held back 2 weeks. The dumbass. I cried when Bridget (his sister) Told me that. My first ( Read more... )