i'm going to college.
i'm going to boulder.
its a weird feeling.

right now, you could not be more hypocritical.

I am ready. I have been ready, but last night despite the positive points, pushed me over the edge. I am done with high school and all it has to offer. At this point I feel overwelmingly claustrophobic and smothered by all that surrounds me. I am done with the judgement. I am done with these "rules". I am done with the lying. I am done with the ( Read more... )

if i could have found one that included JP i would be a little more content. this will have to do for now...


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i liked the talk on the big red couch. i liked the laughter. i liked the back-up plan that was formed.

i didn't like school, my headaches, my friend's anger and frustration only because i want her to be happy.

the end.

spring break was good and bad ( Read more... )

there goes that dream.

i have lost the desire to go out. yet i don't mind. its actually quite freeing.

maybe its your influence on me. either way i'm sad to see you go as usual. and remain, as always, amazed by you, and what you have come to represent in my life. there is no replacement, no comparison, and that is our ultimate comfort.

i miss you kaeli and annie...

im leaving "it" for myself and myself only. because all i needed was to write it and read it. and then move on. but these probelms just keep rearing there ugly heads. and ill i can think to say is sorry. im so sorry.

what i want is honesty, i want maturity, i want people to speak up. simply because avoidance will get you no where.