so today i started a new diet no soda cept in drinks as in jack and coke etc one pack of yogurt one salad and celery / banna/ cantalope for snacks also walking at least once a day

i wake up everyday with a vague rememberance of the nightmare i have awoken from about the accident pausing briefly to contemplate my self worth the children i will never have due to my fear that i will pass my genetic faultyness to them the wife ill never have because im afraid that ill make her miserable with my laundry list of mental problems ( Read more... )

dear world, you have thrown everything you have at me and I am still here. Yes I was recently a little frustrated at myself and you for my life sucking so hard. I have collected my thoughts and have a message for you in the words of my people. EAT A DICK, PISS OFF,and DONT LET THE DOOR HIT YA WHERE THE GOOD LORD SPLIT YA. ok i fell better ( Read more... )

hello peoples i know i dont post alot ,but i need to get this out. I am so frustrated at the current state of things. any of you who know me should know that i hate people helping me at all. I can barely climb a flight of stairs without being out of breath. I am still in incredible amounts of pain.I cry uncontrolably about 4 or 5 times a day thats ( Read more... )

for a long long time i thought people just liked to talk shit about me when i was just within earshot or they got some twisted glee from making me fell like shit. time and time again i would distance myself from people that did this. i think i am alot more crazy than i ever thought i was. i thinkk i have been hearing voices tell me those things and ( Read more... )

anybody wanna come be my cuddle buddy?

i am so tired of girls that i fall in love with only seeing me as a form of income so i say enough no more love for me it can rot in hell for all i care

i have been in a not so happy place emotionally for some time now and im not seeing a way out of this place i am in so this is just to say if i say or do something that seems out of place for me or if i just say or do things that dont quite fit what devin would normally do please try to over look it as much as you can guys im sorry for any ( Read more... )

sorry guys i didnt mean to sound whiney is that how you spell that i totally fell loved

sorry again

so currently today 3 actual people wished me a happy birthday and 7 automated programs have wished me a happy birthday i think its kinda funny

and sad