Something Approaching Catharsis Perhaps

[jonny_darko]

Using this site, I am inevitably reminiscing about... when I used this site. As you know, it was an important time in my life. A part of me has always wanted to go back, while knowing that that's not a thing that can happen. One of my brothers once said that nostalgia is just a trick your mind plays on you and he was right. My younger self would

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[wantedonvoyage]

I'm glad you're back. I've become more consistent here than I think I ever was back then.

It is a cold morning when being an object of desire is not something you can count on. I never really believed I was, but now it's pretty much a pipe dream. But it's nice to realize you're valued for something more substantial.

[jonny_darko]

In my case it was a cold night at a bar when it hit me like a ton of bricks. Someone politely made it clear that we were just friends, and the reaction on my face made him very concerned, but of course it wasn't him, it was the whole a-ha moment, that I can't take anything for granted anymore. Later that night someone else, cute enough, expressed interest but I was feeling so crappy I didn't even appreciate it. Looking back, wow, I still didn't get it! Ha! Anyway that was almost a decade ago.

As for being valued in a more substantial way, that is nice. In younger days, one of the most insulting feelings was when someone had no genuine interest in me as a person, just as the proverbial piece of meat. The most egregious offender is still a friend, and he still kind of treats me that way, but now it's flattering!